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Into the Mind of Lovely Bloody Nitemare

Yeah.. the title explains it all.. it's all that's in my mind....it's thought.. poems.. questions... random s**t.. whatever the hell I want!

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And Out Comes the Love Life I am 19... in case you didn't know. Four days before my 18th birthday I got married. Approximately a week after, I got pregnant. I am sorry if this makes you not want to talk to me or not be my friend anymore if you didn't know until now. Moving on... Lately I have been rethinking my marriage. The love has gone. I'm really not sure if it was even there in the first place. No, no it wasn't. Lust was the only thing that was there. And that is a bad thing to base a marriage off of. I knew my husband for mere months before we got married. Which was also a bad thing. Now I know that. And so it all comes down to this. I dropped out of high school to have a marriage and baby. I never got my GED. Better go get that now, huh? Anyway... we are separated now. Not divorced... yet but separated. So now I am a 19 year old girl with no job, no money, no home, and no education. What can I possibly do now? My answer for that is... live with my mother, get a job, and ask her to PLEASE babysit. Life is st right now. Have any uplifting words? Please leave them. Maybe they will be the ones that make the tears go away. Your words are like kisses / As I wait for them, I tremble When I receive them, I sigh / When they end, I want more He makes me think dirty things that make me blush. / He is just that** good!

Posted by: BloodyLovelyNitemare Wed Dec 17, 2008 @ 06:38pm

Your words are like kisses / As I wait for them, I tremble
When I receive them, I sigh / When they end, I want more
He makes me think dirty things that make me blush. / He is just that good!
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Aku_Wolf_FangsofDesire
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Wed Dec 17, 2008 @ 09:00pm

Well for one you can stop feeling sorry for yourself you're a strong woman. Secondly go back to school get the education you want. Third love your child the best you can If that means you have to ask your mom to babsit so be it. You need to get right with yourself first then worry about what to with your husband and the others trials of life. I suggest taking a vacation somewhere and having a little fun and bonding time with your kid.

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Fri Dec 19, 2008 @ 04:59pm

Mija, things might be hard and seem like its all full of s**t. But keep ya head up and never let it go down. Get the education you need. I know you can do it. I would recommend that you go to the Adult school I went to but its wayyy over here in cali. Mija don't let this set you off track. Get your education, get a job. But first you should take it slow like the homie said. Boned with you baby and give her much love. She needs love, she will feel your emotions. If I can help you, I will give you my full support.

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