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am i crazy?
many people have said this, but how many meant to know the answer? i find myself wanting to know wiether its me or the insecurity of society. you may say im nuts, insane, crazy, or even mad yet there's only one thing i look forward to in life and that is death. im scared of it, doesn't mean i fear it yet i want to know what its like. many people have seen the light, meet god, arrived at the pearly gates then returned from the so called brink. do they really see the things they claim to see or are they hallucinations, mirages, and figments of their imagination to cope with the pain of death. some of the greatest humans that ever lived said they never feared death, is it true? who knows maybe they weren't and maybe they were, we can never be certain. now you are curious about how i look forward to something that many run from as long as they can, till it gets them in the end.
well that questioned is simply answered, i look forward with a smile and a harty luagh. i know its coming, i may not know exactly when but i do know its coming. heres the most crontraversal part. i hope i may die slowly so me and death can shake hands and i can laugh in its face and ask it have you had a great day lately? maybe my death will be painful, i can luagh at pain now but can you imagine what i'd do at the end.
"Fear is a slinking cat I find beneath the lilacs of my mind."- Sophie Tunell
ain't it funny the way we fight through life hopeing the choices, decisions, and actions we make are the right ones. not caring if it effects the next generation significantly. after we go is there a viewing booth on the "other side" to see how the ripples of our actions flow across the pool of humanity. a bench for us to sit on and finally take the time to watch the wind blow, the grass to grow, and time to keep walking by like a endless marching band? do we get to meet death once more not as the turning point of our lives but as another person to sit on the bench with us?
" How could such an absurd and unfair society that torments with self alienation the human being, already completely alienated be still saved?
How could a society such full of misery, of the wickedest tortures, because man’s diabolical mind, once he has lost his Sacred Self, had the time to invent all these misdeeds?
How could we save such a society?
Is it by saving the man, by explaining him about his Sacred Self?
No, I do not think so, because man’s Sacred Self cannot be explained, but man will have to become aware of the great loss he suffered and to regain it himself.
Will it ever be possible?
I believe so, but it will be necessary for the greatest Evil of man to disappear, namely churches, along with religion which humiliate him before a divinity alienated from itself.
Such a salvation will only come if the man will know how to face his fear of Dying and of the lie of the Afterlife as described by some religious cults that thus keep the man chained in the absurd and self alienation.
But until all these occur, all other humans will be the guinea pig of their own lives, as their life lives them instead of them living their life.
Even when man will find again its Sacred Self, he will not be truly happy, but will understand that his life cannot consist of happiness, but of Balance.
This is way it is infinitely better not to have a world at all than to have such a world!"- Sorin Cerin