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Do you remember back in the day, when you had that one friend that always made you feel special? Ya know, the one that you prolly woulda caved into suicidal thoughts without? The one that just decided to get up and leave when you needed them most? Well, I remember mine. I know several of you remember him well. His name was Joel, but most everyone who knew him called him Joey, Cryn, Llama, or bro. He was one of the best people in the world, and when he quit, so did a lot of others. I miss all of those people, especially Joey, and it sucks not having him around when I need someone to talk to. Like, seriously. He's the one who saved me from suicidal thoughts the first time around, and now that they're back, who am I to go to for comfort? I know I have friends and family to go to, but right now it seems like all my so called friends and family aren't as supportive as I want them to be. I wish I could just go and say "Hey ____, I think I'm suicidal. Gimme a hand?" It's just not that easy.
It seems like there are only two people now-a-days that even give two shits about me. I want to thank them both so very much for helping me, especially Chris. I don't know how it happened, but I was incredibly down and he some how managed to not only get a smile on my face, but make me laugh. It's people like him and Joey that make the world go 'round.
So yeah, there's been quite a bit of drama recently. I think it's because Skype and Maple Story is a very bad combo. That, and smart-asses who start s**t. I'm not pointing elbows or anything, but seriously. People need to stop being so ******** stubborn. Why the ******** do you start an argument about ******** ramen? WHY!? I was just stating my opinion, saying "Ramen is one of the best foods in the world," and what happens? I get a comment saying "No it's not. It's not even actual ramen. Now to think about it, you've prolly never had real ramen before." So I tell them the truth, saying that I have, and they argue back, "Where?" in a snippy attitude, so with that, I just close the voice chat. I dislike putting up with PMSing smart-asses. So next thing I know, I get booted out of their guild on Maple Story and flamed for two ******** days. I don't see why I was getting flamed. I also don't get why my boyfriend was siding with them. I just thought ending the voice chat would save me from drama, but it just caused more. *sigh*
The last thing (I promise) is stress is really, well, stressful. I hate having to worry about drama and what-not. And guess what? On top of the mountain of drama and pointless arguments, I have to worry about being ill and surgery. It's not fun. I'm getting so stressed about surgery alone that I have a huge knot on my neck... and it hurts... a lot. It really sucks; especially since I hate needles, let alone surgical knives!! Ya know, Grr. It just really sucks. I just wish that my illness would just magically go away right now. =,=
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 Foxxy Rin · Wed Jan 21, 2009 @ 07:29pm · 0 Comments |
