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Warning- swearing used for you damn 12 year olds -_-

Why don't they get it! I SWEAR! IM DOOMED TO SET THE SHADOW! Heres the explination I have 2 older borthers. They won't remind me how old but I know that they should be liveing out of the house and thier own lifes. No they still live at home with my mother and father. So mom and dad put all the preassure on me to live my own life.

This is driveing me CRAZY!!!

I freaking leaveing the car to go to school, my mother keeps reminding me to do s**t and I said "Please stop putting more pressure on me, I know whats at stake" I said this becuase I KNOW ALREADY that thier ashamed that thier sons have not gotten out of the house or a good job. so guess what she says, oh yes just guess stressed

"I have to becuase you don't put preassure on yourself".......

WHAT THE ********!?!? I JUST WANT TO SCREAM IN ANGER! THATS ALL I DO! AND I DON'T EVEN DO THAT FOR ME!!!!!!!!! I CAN PASS THOUGH SCHOOL AS A D STUDIENT IF I WANT TO BUT NO! I TRY MY BEST SO YOU CAN BE PROUD, AND SO I CAN MOVE OUT OF THE HOUSE AT YOUR COMMAND! crying stressed IM JUST SOOOO ANGRY! AND NO ONE IN SCHOOL WILL UNDERSTAND BECUASE THEY DON'T EXPECT ME TO BE ANGRY! NO EVERYONE THINKS IM JUST ALWAYS HAPPY, WELL IM NOT GOD DAMN IT! YES I SAID GOD DAMN IT! THATS ANOTHER THING! ******** YOU GOD! IM CATHOLIC BECUASE MY FAMILY IS! CHOSE MY OWN RELIGION MY ******** a**! I believe that there may be some thing or one higher then us but im not going to start calling it god right off the bat

Also SCREW BEING SKINNY! IM ******** STOPING TRING TO BE SKINNY. I want to be but its very hard, thats not why im quitting though. Im quiting becuase I just love food. I love to make it, smell it, look at it, and eat it. Food is just something that comforts the soul *is eating a bagel as we speak* my angers mostly out now, im just going to finish my bagel and live out the rest of this shitty day.

~Foxy