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If you read the title you would be thinking "Oh no someone died?" Or "Someone is going to die soon?" or if you hate me or are cold hearted "This person is such a retard thinking people care." well if you don't care why did you read this and why are yo still reading HUH?! If you don't care just fkkkk off.
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The reason I chose this title is because my dad started to feel sick about a week ago already (5/7/09) and my dad has blood in his urine. (If you say eww then you are too childish to care and probably clicked this out of boredom) But when he goes to the doctor they say they don't know and keeps giving him blood tests. I think he may have cancer. But I really hope not.
I am worried about my dad. My dad is always acting like he is fine though and he will only occasionally say his stomache hurts still. I also think he has cancer because he has boon smoking since he was 13 years old so he was smoking for about (I'm just estimating because I am too lazy to do the math) 36 years. And that is a really long time. The doctors have told him a long time ago that he will die earlier than most smokers because his health isn't too good already and he continues to smoke.
My dad usually smokes one pack per day and there is a trash can in my backyard about 2 ft. tall and about half of it is completely filled with cigarettes and another trash about a few inches tall is almost full of cigarrettes.
I've already have to many people in my life die and people say my life hasn't even started. What about my friends who were younger than me? So they haven't started to live yet? So that must mean they never died if they have never lived. For example: Plastic can't die because plastic never lived.
I'm not ready for anyone else to die. Not yet. Not now. Not ever. I noticed my favorite number is two and two people in my family died. Two of my friends died. I had two near death experiences. (or more idk)
So why is my favorite number still two? I don't know and I don't really care... Do I? ... Well I do have four D's in school... Hmmm.... What ever.
Maybe all of this is just a horrible coincidence. Or maybe fate just doesn't want to agree with me. I should jus be happy with what I have. Forget the past. And don't think about the future. It's the here and now that is important and that's that. No more to think about.