OMIGOWD IM SO PISSED OFF!! so today i decided that i was totaly done with the day, about half way though, i went to aclab and told them that i refused to go to my next class. so they said that i should go to the office when the bell rings cuz there wasnt going to be anybody in there. so i was waiting for the bell to ring when i got this overbaring crave for blood so i started to bite my wrist to get blood out right and my aclab teacher yelled at me to not bite myself cuz it 'dangorus' llol no its not!! anyway the bell finaly rang and i went to the office. i told the office that ms. H told me to come there since i wasnt going to go to my next clasess, so they sent me to this person who was subbing for the vice pince, and she was all like 'is there any reson why ur not going to ur clasess?' andi was like 'yah im done with people' than i started to bide my wrist again since ms.H wanst there, and the sub was like 'why are you biteing ur wrist?' and i was like 'cuz i want blood!' and she was like 'we do you know mr. W?' hes the giedence counsalar. and i was like 'yah but i dont talk to him, i talk to Mrs. D.' and she was like ' ok well stop biteing you wrist and ill go see if i can find mrs.d for you' and im thinking why do i need mrs.d???? anyway she sent me to the skool nurse who now thinks im cutting - which i am - cuz of the scars on my wrists, and i was just telling her how i was alergic to anihisev - the sticky stuff on bandaids - when mrs.d walked in. i was like 'hi!! ^^' and she was like some dead thing, she was just like hi... with this totaly straight face. wow. anyway so we were walking and talking untill we got to her office, which of corse is for some reson where i feel safest...strange....so i started talking about how all i wanted was blood and she was like ....... and i was like 'HAVE YOU EVER TASTED BLOOD??' which is a REALLY stuppid question, i mean who hasnt? she noded her head and said yes and i was like ' u obveusly didnt like it!' she noded her head again than asked if i was anemic i was like 'OF CORCE NOT....yes lol y?' and she was like 'cuz animec people sometimes like blood cuz they think that if they drink it they can pick up the nutrience that there body missed.' and i was like wtf how the hell do u even know that? but i didnt say that i was just like 'no i just REALLY love the tast.' she was all like does ur mom know and i was all like noz and she was all like .... and than we just talked about my persenal stuffz at one point tho,i told her that i had wanted to ask mrs.s 4 advice but ended up not cuz mrs.s said that if it was sompthing scary she would tell mrs.d. but than of corse i ended up telling mrs.d anyway. yaknow? how stupid am i? andyway i told her that i didnt wat to live and she made me stay in her office for the rest of the day. than she called my mom in and i hade to be in the meatting with them talking with my mom, how annoying!! theres a RESON why i dont tell my mom this kind of stuff. gowd so long story short my mom got really mad at me afterwerds and i wrote a nasty email to mrs.d. - some long thing asking if she had ever thought that mabye the resont i dont tell my mom these kionds of things is because of the way my mom reacts when she finds out, and that if i had wanted to die than telling my mom would only make me want to die more! than i had to explain that that was just an exzample and i dont want to die- whitch scared her because aparently she felt that she couldnt protect me or sompthing and called the cops so the cops came and freaked my friend out! than when i got back to skool i found out that i hade been suspended untill cheaked out by a REAL sycologist or sompthing. gowd!! w/e im back in skool now and im really pissed.
OMG im not an angel Community Member 
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