I may have thought wrong... the black hole is not... entirely gone? It does feel alleviated from having Ashes (new Webkinz--> a leopard) but that's only from my own belief in what Ashes truly is. As long as I believe he helps, life is easier but... doubt lingers close to me. I wish I could say that I really don't care, but I do. Like all things I try to hide from, I can't deny myself but this self can't be seen in this society.
I still couldn't find that damn key.
I still don't know what the mask looks like or her.
Youtube helps me connect with the world in a way that makes me feel safe. I think it's a generational thing. It is a really great way to remember the past for me. The past is so important and even world news becomes important to you from past years as you get older. I find the past so refreshing not only because it inspires me, lets me be free, and is fixed but also because I personally can't remember so much of the near past because of medicine I took or the way I was living.
I learned from one of my favorite channels, Current, that staying up for longer than two days does actually affect you in negative ways or little sleep. Depreaving yourself of sleep makes days blur into one and affects your moods as well... well the mood s**t I already knew but memory stuff I can't remember. Lol. Can't remember not remembering eh? Lolz. I'm such a dweeb sometimes.
-sigh- I love my most recent outfits. I'm almost at 100 so I gotta pick out a new hairstyle. Any styles you'd like to see me pull off? Hmm, on another note, I am still searching for a job... these past two days do not count though.... they were my... "college life days" >W< lolz, celebrating NOT being home with parents who yell at you or nag the s**t or big you and control and try to put you in a box and take over your room... no. "College life" away from parents ^^ PURE BLISS
Possible Future Hairs: (feel free to recommend any others)
Suggestion Usagi: DENIED, I think that hairstyle is dead ugly >.>
