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I remember myself, being a new student walking into my 5th grade classroom at Discovery.I came at the last month of school and had alot of confusions on that month. I remembered that i didnt know how to take an AR test, how i got a free milk shake, and open my own desk there... xD (it was so different) That month, i made good friends. I met some of them playing spider tag and i happened to join in.. screaming and tagging people with a grin on my face but i also remembered on the last week of school, it was spirit week, one of the day in that week was sport day. This guy, Marc, wored this karate suit (idk what it called xD ) on that day..i remembered this because he was the only one >o< My buddy , Megan, somehow got a hold of his orange karate belt and we played Tug Of War with it. My little sister, MIchelle happened to pass by and join in the fun. 3 against 1, we won =D and after that we tryed to untie to knot in his belt...i tryed but epicly failed.... and didnt touch it again because one of marc's friends ( i think Cody) tryed to untie it with his mouth. After that day, i wanted to know that kid, Marc more.

On the first day of 6th grade, i looked up in my class list and noticed none of my good friends were in the same class with me but as i look around, i noticed that karate guy , Marc was im the same class with me also. During that week, i bumped into my friends Elizabeth and Nowelle, before i bumped into them , i heard lizza say something like, For years and years... to nowelle. Getting curiuos, i asked. What years and years?? Then Elizabeth told me about this guy name Marc Deluna having a crush on her for a long time. Then i realized it was the boy who was in my class last year with the orange karate belt. After that conversation.. I grinned at her and asked, Are u sure that u dont like him back? >:]

During that year, we tryed to make Lizza at least talk to marc because if it possible for marc and lizza to talk alot on the internet , why not in real life?? i remembered marc friends were kinda doing the same thing, making him talk to lizza. I thought Marc was desperate to at least run away because the next thing i knew he was on the ground.... ( i think megan made u go on the ground... again xD ) i barely said anything to him and watched megan and lizza do all the talking.
Sadly, Lizza quited gaia and no one really goes on excepted for Marc, so i decided to talk and annoy him for fun. A bunches of times, i would asked him, Who do u like??!!!!!! and always get the same answer. "A Girl" Until he finally admited that it was Lizza. After i stopped asking him that questions, i knew that liking Lizza wasnt all about himself , so i asked questions about himself. That year i realized that he was fillipino and so was lizza and Nowelle (i never knew what ur guys race were... even in North Carolina). That bought memories back to my mind but i hold them back....

7th grade... was an year i have never expected. i have chosened art and spanish and my friend marc too but the school made us do band instead. I thought i would've hated band and not have fun but i actually did have fun... i got to know my old friends more and met new people... i met this guy Junil.. well i met him in 5th grade but barely knew him. all i can say, one look at him, was pure hate in the beggining ... >o<" i thought he was annoying, selfish, and conceited.. but as i get to know him more with the help of my friends Marc and Megan. I got used to him and became best buds. Drumline bought our friendship together more and other school related activities. Getting in trouble, having fun, cheering for random groups of people... and being crazy...(mick in banana suit) We also had math field day... my friends pleaded me to join so i did. When i realized most of my good 8th grader friends and 7th graders were in it, i realized that math field day gonna be fun..
there was rumors that Marc had a crush on me but i didn't believed them. We were just good friends and i knew he had a big crush on one of my friend paula ;D i didnt want to be in the way and get pissed off everytime they asked me if i like Marc.I don't know when but i caught myself having a crush on Marc before Paula moved in. When i realized he liked someone else, most of those feelings for him ran away. I didnt know if i should be happy or upset but it felt like i didnt care back then... now back to math field day...my friends were trying to plan something and i knew it was something i didnt like... I can still imagina Megan , yelling out loud. MARC, GO ASK RACHAEL OUT!!! U LOVE HER!! Of course, my other friends cracked up but i just stood there. telling megan to shut up and me and marc are just friends. I knew that Marc only liked me around this week in Febuarary. I was surprised when he told me because i never expected him having a crush on me even for a day. As time went by, it was getting closer to the last week of school and i knew i had to warn my friends I was moving on May 30th, if i told them on the last day of school or at the last second...they would probably be in shock and cry... i don't like seeing tears in my friends eyes so i wait till i was ready. When i told my friends, they didnt believe me at first but when they realized I was serious.. they were starting to believe me little by little. On the weekend, i decided to text Marc and tell him i was moving...I didnt know what his reaction would be.. would he be happy? or sad? My fingers felt numb as I texted him the words.
Before I moved I had this fun party with my close friends, sadly some of them couldn't come... but that day was worth it. One by one by friends lefted and as each one of them leave, i barely felt the tears in my eye. I smiled and waved goodbye not wanting them to see me cry. I knew I wouldn't see them for a long time or forever...and then it was Marc turn to leave. I thought to myself, Its gonna be my last time seeing Marc... Before he lefted I gave him a last hug. When his car drove away, me and my friends with silently inside. As my friends watched funny youtubes on the internet, i went in the backyard and cleaned the pool area... as i picked up the colorful popped water balloons, I felt my tears rolling down my cheeks and land on my feet. I went back inside wiping the tears off when i picked up most of balloons.
Megan was the last person of course after everyone lefted, Marc said he can come back because his parents were being "parents" Marc came back and we all just hang out, prank calling people, looking at the weird flashes of light in the distance, making random shapes out of the stars and clouds. Then Marc parents came to pick him up, before i gave him a quick last hug, i realized that i liked him more than a best friend.I was about to say those 3 simple words but hold them back, knowing his family might hear. Me and my friends waved goodbye and went back inside. I layed down on the couch while Megan went on the computer but she turned around and ask me, "Why didn't u tell him?"
Because i don't feel like it and his family were there anyway too.... there was a long silence after that and we went back to where we were. Megan busy typing on the internet while i layed down on my back looking at the ceiling,remembering the past and wondering about the future..
I knew I was friends with Marc for a short period of time...2 years weren't enough... I also knew i was gonna miss him...more than i expected.All those chats and memories we had, i can't believe i never noticed that I loved you more than a best friend. <3