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Long I have loved this man, he was kind, smart, and most of all he was beautiful beyond my imagination. I loved him so much and thought one day I would marry him. After all he trusted me with his lifes deepest secrets. And I trusted him so much I revealed to him my true identity. Even after three monthes of me hiding it from him he still accepted me. So I slowly allowed him to meet my closest friends who I love so dearly. And eventually he and I became a couple. The first two monthes of the relationship were wonderful, he shared so many interesting things with me and showed me so much affection. I was so happy with my life at that point.

Then there was the day he told me he cheated on me... He cheated on me with his sister in Gaia! And yet I forgave him because God told me that I had to help him and forgive him. And so I did.. We had a good period of time together things were normal and we started a family and got married. He was really affectionate and kinda sad because of all the things going on in his life. So I did the right thing and helped him and listened to him for hours on the phone. He even let me talk to his Mom and Dad on the phone which was really good because it showed that he trusted me. And I wish he understood how much his Dad loved him.

Anyways about in the middle of March he cheated on me again and said "He needed a break from the relationship." At that point he broke my heart into pieces and I could not forgive him at all and he even asked if we could still be friends! That's like killing someones dog and saying they can keep it. Or a boot stomping on your face forever. He grew a little suicidal during this week and attempted it once. But he couldn't soon I dated another guy named logan. He was so sweet but had alot of problems. And at the same time I still loved him... And he asked me while I was with Logan,"Do you think this really is love?" And my emotions just poured out because I missed him and I missed being a psuedo-mother to our kids. Then we got together again.

So for the next few monthes he wasn't as affectionate as usual and he started calling less and less. And I told him I was moving and would have a chance of seeing him but at the same time I would be moving and would lose every single one of my friends. So he and I got pretty excited over that. It gave me hope that our relationship would help me feel better after I lost all my friends.

And today was the worst day of all. It is because he asked for a break from the relationship again because he wants a more beautiful and sexy woman. Because he can't keep his balls in his pants. He'd prefer a pretty girl or an ugly innocent girl anyday. So It's over for good and it hurts so much because on Sunday I leave all my friends behind and I have no one to help me except for my family and big brother. Hopefully things get better from there.... He's hurt me so much... I don't know what to do.