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To Whom it may Concern I can count my friends with only one hand, and right now I want to keep it that way. Its not about the amount of people you come into contact in your lifetime, its the amount of people that actually count and have made a significant impression on you. Needless to say, a lot of people have made a significant impression on me, most of which have been terrible. They've only showed me that most people cannot and should not be trusted. Even those who come off as being your friend only to stab you in the back later. They turn into these beings that think they have the world figured out, but honestly who does? Life would be so boring if it was already figured out. I'm tired of seeing people give these so-called philosophical rants when they are merely rants without a purpose. No one cares (well at least I don't) what they have to say, since its the same thing repeated over and over, the only thing different is the word order, or lack thereof. But then again, I'm being very hypocritial right now, I'm ranting without a purpose. (Oh my) Sometimes I feel like I have to explain myself. I know people read what I have to say, but do they actually understand me? That would be a negatory commander. Very few people actually read and understand my POV, they just jump in with their two cents and proceed to making me look like a jackass. It doesn't take much to make me look like a jackass, but its quite annoying to see people that I have known for a long time simply read or listen to me without any grain of understanding. For all I know this is intentional, which it probably is. Do I have to underline or bold everything I type to get some sort of emphasis? No, I don't have to, but sometimes its needed. Scratch that, all the time. (Sorry) It feels like people I talk to online understand me more than those I actually communicate with outside this little box. Maybe thats why the pull of the internet is so strong on me. People understand me here, as opposed to out there. Hell, the people I thought were my friends don't understand me one bit while a random stranger actually listens and understands what I am telling him/her. Its very annoying to say the least. I've been told that I have changed into something terrible. Do you honestly think I haven't figured that out? I like who I am, you don't have to. If you don't like it, don't talk to me, its not like I'm forcing anyone to talk to me. People think that I don't see these things, and like to tell me what I'm doing wrong. (or better yet what they think I'm doing wrong) I do what I do because it is what I do. It doesn't have to be your way to be the right way. To each his own. (oh the cliche, kill it) I'm a hypocrit. Some people just rub me the wrong way to the point where their name makes me convulse. I try to be civil with some people, but there are just some that I cannot bring myself to look eye to eye. They annoy me with such a passion that even blocking them out of my life does little to soothe the annoyance. I'm a very hotheaded, short tempered, and outspoken person when I want to be. An old friend told me to be myself, and I am. They just don't like what I have become, which is their choice and not mine to decide. I won't change myself to fit someone else's standards ever again. Maybe that is why I can count my friends with one hand. Yeah, thats why.

Posted by: ShaIIow Mon Dec 12, 2005 @ 08:28pm

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Commented on: Mon Dec 12, 2005 @ 08:40pm


	claps good for you, Tina

Commented on: Mon Dec 12, 2005 @ 08:40pm


	bows Did I just do something good? O.o

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Commented on: Mon Dec 12, 2005 @ 09:45pm


	All people understand one sided storys 3nodding . just the way people are.

Commented on: Mon Dec 12, 2005 @ 10:13pm


	Then I guess I'm not like everyone else. neutral I guess that can be a good thing.

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Commented on: Tue Dec 13, 2005 @ 06:08pm


	It's hard to really know a person, over the internet, tina. I'm happy for you that you find friendship in people online, and i do agree that some old friends turn into scumbags after a while... It's jut that, we all do care about you, tina. I hope you understand that. Just remember that everything is not about you, and i say this in the most sincere way.

Commented on: Tue Dec 13, 2005 @ 08:16pm


	Have I ever said that everything was about me, Gabby? No. Thats what I'm really starting to hate about everyone I know offline, all you people do is assume this and assume that. I can't even type freely without one of you saying that I think everything is about me.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 03:44am


	Well gues what tina people off line, you know the real breathing you actually see in person people have what do you call feelings, you rant and b***h and you know it can bug people. you think you have a right to say what you want in your journal and that's fine if you want to play that way. What's not fine is the fact that you can't even talk to people in real life. you like to hide behind your computer where you have all the time in the world to think of ways to twist what I say or make stupid insults like " if your going to talk at least have good grammar". you keep doing the same thing and the cycle continues. The diffrence this time is there not buying things tina. notice how somthing as simple as alexia getting a boy friend turned to this? it's because what you do has always been a problem people are just getting tired of it. so yes the people that care are "on-line" you say? Well get this even if you meet these people in person in real life you'll piss them off some way and cry to some one else and then the cricle go on.... All you can think about is the bad it seems these days. you talk about me like I'm some monster, that all I"m here for is making your life a living hell. I bet that now when some one asks about who I am you never once talk about all the times I tried to help you. you know maby I cared too much and it pissed you off. it still didn't mean you had the right to treat me the way you did. you asked for my adivce and I told you and you though I was wrong and did it your way. when it didn't work you bitched and complain. Well guess what if you would have taken mine and others people advice things might or might not be diffrent. you know be nice to gaby. all she's wants is to be your friend. but no that pisses you off that people care and tell you what's wrong. Since to you it's the obvious you don't want to except it.

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 03:45am


	Hugs heart crying i would never stab you in the back, only in the front like a loyal frirend. and i mean that. pirate

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 03:50am


	takes baseball bat and bashes john on the side of the head. he dies instantly damn it, john! i didn't mean to kill you so quickly, i wanted to bash your brains in and it would be a waste of energy to do it when you're dead already. st. i just wanted you to shut up, you know? you are terrible at trying to help people. you **** suck at it! and you're even worse at defending them. so just don't say anything because you will only make it even worse than it already is. and don't ****** try to defend yourself against me. just, shut up, ok? please?

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 03:56am


	blinks John, stop jumping to conclusions and thinking I'm mad at Gabby. I'm not even mad at her. I'm just pointing out the bloody fact that all you people seem to think is that I think everything is about me. But I don't think that way.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 05:18am


	I never said you where mad. I just said be nice because all she can go upon is what you write since your lack of phycial interaction causes us to think that it's a certian way when you say it isn't.

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 05:37am


	Then don't assume that I am being mean to her. Just stop assuming and actually understand. Its honestly not that hard.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 05:45am


	it's also not that hard to tell people in person which you haven't done since april. I've always willing to do what you want but you have never vice versa.

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:31am


	I'd rather avoid conflict, but for some reason its right on my a**. I'd rather not talk to you, since I don't want to yell at you. John, you annoy me, and have annoyed me for a while. I tried staying away from you to let those feelings go away, but you're not letting that happen. I don't want to be annoyed with you, so please just leave me alone. If you have nothing nice to me, just don't bother saying it. I don't want to be annoyed with you anymore.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:37am


	sweatdrop So much anger and bitterness here. Are things ever going to be peaceful again? Gezz..................i guess not. sweatdrop Man, it's like an episode of Jerry Spriger here. neutral But oh well i guess, things are what things are.

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:43am


	I tried that and all I got was you talking about me behind my back. tina there's a lot you have said that you think I don't hear. you have treated me like st for a while with all these acts of yours. I do what you ask and nothing changes. you said I was a good friend of yours in the past well I don't see the problems you have well guess what friends forgive the st of the past. I've tried to forgive and I still do and am still willing to do it but you don't want to. I doubt time isn't going to do anything because there is no problem but the problems of the past. ON a side note we all see why you don't want to get into it because your not right and am not the only one saying this. you can't take the fact that you could be wrong.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:50am


	Oh, gee, its Alexia. Its the first time you've talked to me since I supposedly attacked you. -- Then what was with what you said to Andrea? I come back online to see that you talked to her on AIM saying that you're only being mean to me because you don't care and will continue to do so.

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 06:59am


	I had to run and coupdn't finish telling her what I wanted because my dad was being my dad. had to go to martial arts and when I came back loged off. andrea told to stop helping you. I'm not trying to be helpfull because you won't listen so I'm letting everyone else realize what you do and who you are. don't you think that they don't hear what you say about me and how you act. I mean come on I left you alone for two freaking months and every two weeks or so you somthing negitive about me. why should I be the better man anymore if either way I get crap thrown my way? also I would rather you yell at me before you make alexia the new me and find reasons to hate or b***h about her. you never want to talk to me and history shows that the only time we actually fixed things was when we talk about it face to face like at the libary.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 07:01am


	I'm not going to the library tomorrow, I have work. I may go Thursday with Jen because it'll be my last day to go for winter break.

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 07:24am


	"Oh, gee, its Alexia. Its the first time you've talked to me since I supposedly attacked you." "Not really. I'm going to be blunt with you, so don't take it as me being mad at you in any way, since I'm not. Raymond has a point. As sad as it is for me to say so, but he does. From what I see he tried to help you, and you disregarded his help. The moment you find this happiness, you basically said "screw you" to your friends and devoted your time to him. If you leave your friends, I doubt they'll be there when you need them the most. I lerned that the hard way. I was happy with Raymond, I thought i didn't need anyone else, and they went away. And I'd like to talk to you, but all you seem to talk aobut is Matt, Matt, Matt. And quite frankly I've had the urge to smack yopu upside the head. You damn well know I'm lonely and pathetic and I personally wish not to hear of your expliots. I already have a hard enough time accepting the fact that no one will love me. I don't need you shoving yours into my face. With that said, I hope there is a greater clairity." okay if that's not a attack I don't know what is.

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 07:27am


	supposedly? you did attack me tina for having a boyfriend. i'm sorry but was it my fault that i found someone and started to become happy? apparently you think so since you got so pissed off at me. And don't you dare say that i am assuming this, cause i'm not the only one who has seen this. you can't stand to see other happy tina and it's really sad. the only way you can be happy is for others to be more miserable than you. now i tried to be your friend and try to help you but you never wanted to try to make yourself happy, you just wanted it handed to you, but sorry life's no t that way. if you want to be happy you must reach out and take or else someone else will get it first. but nay, you wouldn't do it. you sit and cry that you're lonely and you're going to be that way for the rest of your life, that you're a bitter b*h. well tina you're the one who says it. as for me i am done. i am tired of your depressing atmosphere and that you can't stand to see other happy, it's disgusting really. i wanted to be your friend, but it is you who has the problem not me. i didn't start this you did, as you started everything else. so go on and count all your friends on one hand and be content with it. and the only reason why people online seem to understand you better than the poeple you know in real life is because they don't know you in real life. for if they did, things would be different. ok i am done so you can rant and bh all you want cause i don't care i just need to get that off my chest. goodnight. rofl*

Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 07:31am


	That is not an attack, John. I thought I told you that before, but alas you don't (or choose not to) understand it. It would have been an attack if I just let my feelings fester to the point where I actually smacked her. You see it as me "attacking" her, while its original purpose is to inform her of what is annoying me. I thought that with friends one should be open and honest, I guess I was wrong. Next time something bothers me, I'll just let it sit and become a burden so that I explode upon the person makling things ten times worse, kay? 3nodding

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Commented on: Wed Dec 14, 2005 @ 07:36am


	your right. I just wish you would listen toy ou own advice. the problem is that you told her that she's losing her firends. And you forgot the secound part whihc is understanding your friends situation. no one's going to give you special treatment tina because you can't handle it. That honesty you speak of is one that is giving IN PERSON and seeing how you saying things online people can get the wrong idea. just like how all this got started. you like to hold people acountiblle for what they say but we must except you. anyways good night.

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