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i think this is my first attempt at a legit journal entry lol well lets see how it goes considering i am listening to comedy on aol radio at the same time....wiht the damn internet connection going out every five seconds! goddamn you network bastards as my friend danielle would say. so yeah. but i have discovered that i overthink things. people have told me that i have but im getting annoyed wiht it now. god its like a curse. there are so many good ideas roaming around my head like freaking buffalo before the white ppl came in and said
-" hey guys! moving targets!"
and the indians were like
-"um no. try GET THE HELL AWAY!"
im sure they totally had this conversation. it was quite common. but ill be all ready to start somethink and then oh dejesus here comes the libran side of me that says sorry hun try again. it sounds like a freaking gay vending machine that keeps saying sold out but you know the damn soda is in there and the machine is hoarding it. but hey maybe sometimes it might be good to overthink things. like when your standing on the edge of a bungeejump platform and your like maybe this isnt such a great idea. i that damn person. standing there wiht the wind whipping hte hair around my face and doublethinking. its amazing that i got that far. i need that one person whose standing next to me whispering "do it". i need them to push me off the edge into the unknown and say "im doing this casue you need it." i dont need another devils advocate casue i got that covered up down and sideways. i need to block out overthinking and jsut do. i dont want to end up like the useless politicians killing the earth casue their italian loafers will get scuffed. screw them and i hope hell is as deliciously horrid as the stories promise. they desevre every parched second of it. i dont want to think. i want to do. thats how things get done and thats all that matters