I went to st.judes today and i went to go donate and see how my buddy jake is doing and i was walking in and theres this girl about 10 or so and i heared her say mommy does it hurt to die and i will never for get that cuz no kid should have to live like that like you know in fear the worst thing for well anybody cuz that kid is thinking maybe well i would be like damm im dying like we are all gonna die one day but to know that you only have a few months or so must be like a downner... and like i lived my childhood not knowing of death i did things cuz it was fun and you know how they say have no regrets well hell i do i'd do it all over but whats done is done im still living maybe not in the next days but i'll survire for now.... but man whats its like for the parents i'd hate that but they live to... parents that makes me think about me and mandi my lover only if only she were mine