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I don't think i am meant to be happy, why.. because I've ruined every relationship I've been..., First time a girl ask me to be her boyfriend in 5 grade, i was to shy to answer her and she stopped talking to me. Second time a girl in my first year of high school asked me too and i said no.. why did i say no..i don't know... . Then i had the best gf ever ill never forget that relationship and then i did the dumb a** thing ever.. i broke up with her.. why cause i was afraid of been dumped by her, and she probably never wanted to dumb me or to leave me... we still talk sigh oh well, guess I'm not meant for happiness huh.... I'm a screw up right, i think so too.. that's why I'm writing this damn thing, its stupid why do i keep doing that...i literally see my self just been ******** lonely for the rest of my ******** useless life.... damn it