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I find myself with strange questions running through my mind. All at once, I feel like I'm no longer a child. Like I'm no longer permitted to be a kid. I feel as if I lost all that ability.

Oddly enough, I found myself asking "What is adulthood like? What exactly happens?"

I always imagined it would be great. I'd be on my own. I'd be happy if I wanted to. I'd have the friends that I've always had.

Adulthood starts off with a big slap in the face. Adulthood is a b***h.
Its fighting to be happy.
Its fighting to be the bigger person.
Its losing your friends, one by one.
Its horrible.

I can only post this here, where I know no one here will judge me like everyone else seems to do.

I'm losing my friends, one by one. Its their fault... But, oddly enough, its their fault. And they don't see it.

I'm being ripped apart slowly. And its painful...
How much more will I have to endure?
How much will I lose as I enter adulthood...?

... Is there even a chance at happiness?

And why do the bad things happen ALL AT ONCE?

Karma and life is a b***h. That's simply it. I don't know how I can try to be optimistic when its so dark right now...

Is there going to be a light at the end of the tunnel?
Or will it get darker and darker until you no longer have any hope?
:/
I guess I'll just keep my fingers crossed...