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i fail.
"I'm very proud of you. I just wanted you to know that."
"...okay..."

xD
I never know what to say to the wind ensemble director when he says these things to me. It means so much that he does- I want to go to college for bassoon performance and all, so kind words like that make me feel warm and fuzzy inside. But I never know how to verbally respond. xD
Even the orchestra director was gushing today, which was entertaining.
I hesitate to call her eccentric, because I think she's just a nut. But I'll say eccentric anyway, 'cause she's nice. lol.






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exoticXxXprincess
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Wed Jan 06, 2010 @ 09:32pm


You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect,
is all that you believe


Oh, Whigg, that's wonderful! It always makes me embarrassed when I get those compliments. I'm terribly happy but I never know how to receive them. I usually try to thank the person, as I know teachers don't always give out such hearty compliments.

I didn't know you wanted to go into music.


I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky

You will see your beauty every moment that you rise


Whigg
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Thu Jan 07, 2010 @ 02:19am


It's always kind of uncomfortable. lol. I think the modern human is inept at accepting praise. xD
He seriously said one day that my sound on bassoon was like "rich, decadent dark chocolate" and described it in thorough detail. While in the middle of a rehearsal in front of the entire ensemble. After like a verbally presented essay about how wonderful I am, he then goes 'oh, and the bass clarinets were good too.'
xD
I was so embarrassed. But amused at the same time. Because, seriously, dark chocolate? xD

It was sort of a recent realization. I was taking the practice SAT's and they asked us what field we wanted to go into as part of like the initial thing (where they ask your race and name and gender and stuff) and I put marine biology, but I didn't really think I wanted to do that. So I considered it some more and then both my piano teacher and wind ensemble director started bothering me about going to school for music, and I said no to them at first but then with further thought I actually realized that this might be the only thing I can actually get through a 4 year college with. xD with my sanity intact, anyway.
The other choice at this point is library sciences. Which is basically just so that I can get a job later in life that'll still leave me time to play music. Haha.
But what I really want to do is to play in an orchestra- maybe a pit orchestra for an opera troupe or something.

What are you majoring in, anyway?


exoticXxXprincess
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Thu Jan 07, 2010 @ 07:15am


You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect,
is all that you believe


Now, that would embarrass me. I hate being complimented in front of other people. I mean, I enjoy the compliment, but I don't want the teacher making a big deal out of it in front of other people.

I can be a bit competitive, so all a teacher has to do is compliment me on the side and I'll work harder. For my first Student/Parent-Teacher conference this last year when I was taking government, my teacher made the mistake of saying I had the highest grade in all three of his classes. From that point on I had to overachieve in the class. And I did, I even got one of the very few A's on the final exam. >.>

I'd say go for it. It's competitive, but you want to do something you love more than anything else. If you choose to stick to it, I will want to come to one of your concerts, even if I can't see you in the pit. That would be amazing! I've always liked music myself, but it's not something I'm great at. I just kind of wish I could be in chorus again. I miss it. u.u

Whigg, that's a good question. I am undeclared. I have no major, and no clue as to what I am doing. Which, isn't good at all since I'm being pressured from all sides to decide and college is too expensive to be uncertain as I am.

My first three thoughts coming in first semester were Teaching, Graphic Design, or Biology (for Genetic Counseling).

I took an education class this last semester and discovered I liked it in practice, but the actual subjects we went over bored me out of my mind. I'll have to find some kind of graduate program if I want to do education. So that's been put on hold for the moment.

I haven't been able to take an art class in college since I'm a loser with bad luck when it comes to registration times. I'm not sure if I want to anymore, either. I would want to design CD, DVD, and Movie covers, or posters for them, not much else. I probably wouldn't be able to get what I wanted, so I don't think I should go into it with such a small range of interest. Besides, sometimes I feel like art is more of a hobby.

Finally, in theory Genetic Counseling sounds like an amazing job I could enjoy, but I'm not sure I want to go through the steps to get there (math is my worst subject by far). I would have to take Calc I, and possibly Calc II. Ew. I'm not sure I even want to do dissecting, it's kind of a fear of mine. The blood isn't my problem, it's the guts. And dissecting involves lots of guts.

I considered an English major since I love creative writing, but I hate hate hate writing regular papers. I never procrastinate unless it's a paper (and I have done so up until 5 am before). The English major is packed full of classes so if I did do it, I'd have to start now.

So...I'm back to square one. I'm taking required courses right now so that I can at least sample around.

I like a lot of subjects, but very few hold my passions. With hard work and application, the only subject I haven't succeed in has been most math subjects, so I have many windows open to me. The problem is I am horrible at making decisions, so having so many choices not only scares me, it makes it difficult for me to choose what I want.

I suppose if I could do anything, I would want to write or do fashion design. But I don't know if I could possibly succeed in either.


I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky

You will see your beauty every moment that you rise


Whigg
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Fri Jan 08, 2010 @ 12:14am



It WAS pretty funny though. "Erin, I just have to say, your sound is like delicious dark chocolate. It's... it's strong, it's decadent and full and sweet and bitter at the same time. It's gorgeous. Blah blah blah." And me and my friend, an alto sax player, were looking at each other and trying not to laugh the whole time. He said I turned red at some point. xD

Ha. That was me in global and english two years ago. But now my english teacher HATES me. So I really do think he's penalizing me in terms of grades. Because, I mean, you know the way I write-- and I earned an 83 in his class last quarter.
I missed a couple hw assignments, but not enough to drop my grade from like a ninety eight out of a hundred (which was my test and quiz average) or so to an 83.

anyway.

I've heard it's competitive, but
A) i like competition ;]
and
B) I play two rare-ish instruments- bari sax and bassoon- and I've been told that certain schools always have a shortage of both, so. Someone described the bassoon as a "golden ticket".

Those are three very different plans, eh? xD
Most of the college students I'm friendly with are the same way. Like this one sailing instructor over the summer thought for sure he was going into language (I think? can't remember now) and last I heard from him he was in school and undeclared.

Fashion design would be awesome. My mom got accepted into a school of art and design when she was applying to colleges. I think she went there for like two years or so. She said it was fun.

And she's now a teacher. The thing about teaching though is that lately, at least where I live, it's been REALLY hard to find jobs.

I don't know about writing... P: I want to get published too, but relying on it for a living... I dunno. That would take a lot of joy out of it, you know? That, and you never know if you're even going to get published or not.


exoticXxXprincess
Community Member





Fri Jan 08, 2010 @ 12:19am


You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect,
is all that you believe


My band teacher hated me, so I'm glad you're having a good experience.

Yeah, most people have a general area of what they want. Medicine, art, music, stuff like that. >.>

I would like to do fashion, but I doubt I could. I would also like to write, but the question is like what you pose, "Do I want to live off of it?" I'm not sure. I would like to get a degree and write on the side, but once again I don't know what I want.

I enjoy Japanese, but I'm not sure if I'd want to major in it. And even if I did, I'd have to go to a different school.


I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky

You will see your beauty every moment that you rise


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