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DEPRESSED i don't no y I'm so pissed of all the time (eww no no not dat i no wat ur thinking its not dat) its like I'm always sad about sumthing then when I'm happy its always like a fake smile glued on my face i can't remember the last time i smiled for real for some reason pplz say i smile in my pic with my eyes i don't get it cuz i never smile in pics my parents piss me off all the the time and its mostly my dad idky they can't just send me off to live with my step dad i bet my mom juss wanna make my life a nightmare i make the same mistake twice everytime idky its like I"m distined to learn from my mistakes but i never really do learn from it i hate remembering things i regret its like being stabbed (and yes i have gotten stabbed a couple of times by knifes forks and pens and usally i do the knife part) i hate having to live like this i hate it i wanna give up the emo part of me put i can't even if i gived it up (i tried) i keep on cutting myself and being depressed when i once when i stabbed myself and went to the ER after i got stitches doctors made me stay in the hospital for a week and they wanted to talk about my problems of cutting myself i didn't talk to them and i kept on holding my breath so i could passout but u no i always end up bak in that white room that scares me its not like I"m gonna kill myself in a white room stupid doctors
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