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Old flames aren't easily extinguished.
Every day I see my first girlfriend, Friday, I miss her more. I don't know why. She's the first person I've ever had this much, like... pathetic puppy-love-esque emotion towards. I get butterflies whenever I look at her.
I've had three girlfriends since her, but none of them made me feel like this. She's so perfect, in my eyes. Which is ridiculous. Whenever I'm /not/ around her I can list all the things that are wrong with her. I could right now, but that's not the point of this entry.
I don't know what to do. I want her back, but she's gone /straight/ and is dating this a** hole who treats all my friends like crap... she could do better than him. I don't even mean that she should be with me, I mean that she's so above him it's ridiculous.
Come to think, maybe they broke up. I'm not sure anymore.
Anyway. I'd talk to her if I wasn't sure she was 'straight' again. Which is funny, because my friend Hannah who has spot-on gaydar insists that Friday is at least bi. So.
I'm still mad that she broke up with me because her parents said that she needed a boyfriend. I'm still mad that she wrote a list of everything she hates about me and read it off to my friend Jose. I'm mad that she bashes the army and knows that my family on both sides has tons of military vets and current soldiers and army doctors.
But I want her back.






User Comments: [5]
Katsody
Community Member





Wed Mar 03, 2010 @ 03:06am


I don't want to die slowly, I don't want to decay; I want to be chosen, I want to be made

That's a really sucky reason to break up with someone. =/
Especially such an awesome person like you. ^_^

I have someone I used to be like that with. I think the trick is to get yourself to that point where you can say, That's it, I'm done playing this. But the hard part is getting there, and that's what friends are for. *hugs*


(Don't take me too seriously. I suck at this dating advice thing. xD)

I don't want to die lonely and weary of life; I will not be earth bound, I'm goin' to fly


exoticXxXprincess
Community Member





Wed Mar 03, 2010 @ 03:45am


You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect,
is all that you believe


Whigg, I'm hardly the person to give you advice, but you have to ask yourself. Do you still want her because you love her, because you couldn't have her, or because she was your first real love?

By the sound of it, you never had an actual end to your relationship. It was jut left in threads. I'm not sure what your current relationship with her is, but I'd say start by just trying to be friends. See if she's still the girl you want. Just as Katsody said, you deserve the best. Someone who really loves you.


I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky

You will see your beauty every moment that you rise


Whigg
Community Member





Wed Mar 03, 2010 @ 05:22am


You guys are so tolerant of me and my whining
;A;
I love you both.
I dunno what to do. I'll live. It's whatever.


exoticXxXprincess
Community Member





Wed Mar 03, 2010 @ 05:30am


You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect,
is all that you believe


It's not whining, Whigg. It's life. We all have to deal with it.


I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky

You will see your beauty every moment that you rise


Whigg
Community Member





Wed Mar 03, 2010 @ 07:29pm


Well, it's me whining about life. P:


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