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Arognat: *is sitting on Elijah's recliner while he's not there with her feet up on the arm rest* Man, I'm ******** bored.

Clarissa: *is laying ackwardly on the sofa* Me too.

Diana: *sitting in the corner, knitting* Well why don't we do something productive?

Katherine: *is reading* I don't think there's anything to do and now that Clarie enrolled our children into school, there's nothing or no one to take care of... : <

Clarissa: Yeah and our husbands are always off doing crap without us now-a-days...

Adelise: Hey guys. *walks through the door* Have you seen Emily? I needed to ask her about her Nano-C.

Clarissa: She's not here.

Arognat: *rolls off of the recliner and walks over to her room* Emily! Are you in there?! *bangs on her door...no answer* b***h....*opens her door and looks in to find a large book on her bed*

Clarissa: Hey Adelise, we need something to do. Figure somethin' out.

Adelise: D8 I can't right now! I need that Nano C. I wanna make some upgrades to my Pipboy!

Arognat: Look what I found! *lifts up the book*

Clarissa: Whas tha?

Arognat: Emily's diary.

Diana: Oh...Mrs.Gahn maybe you shouldn't...

Arognat: Oh whatever. We're all bored and this is going to be oue source of entertainment.

Clarissa: 8D Read it! Read it!

Katherine: I don't want to be any part of this. : < *closes her book and goes for the door*

Arognat: *skims through some pages* Oh ho ho! Look at this one! Hehe, how funny.

Katherine: Um, maybe I can, um, listen just a little.. *sits at the kitchen table.

Diana: Oh...

Adelise: Oh well, I look through terminals all the time!

Clarissa: Stop giggling and read us something, dammit!

Arognat: Alright, alright...

July 10, 2009. I normally do not keep journals, I find them a waste of time but since I don't really have anyone to talk to it's best that I can atleast be open about things that are on my mind. Otherwise I just might lose it.

I had gone onto base but my father had dismissed me. For some reason he's been prolonging my suspensions. There must be something of great importance occurring if he is stalling for such long periods of time. I couldn't find out. My father had Anton escort me into Barton Town.

I'll assume I will piece everything together sooner rather than later. As for then, I figured I would just go visit my friend, Cross at the bar. Everything had gone the way it usually does when I spend time with him and his friends, Fizz and Jack. Melanie had come in for her usual afternoon drink before heading back to the nursery.

She was babbling on about how adorable Jack was and I thought that was pretty cute. She acts like everyone is oblivious to her crush on him. It's been along time since she's been inlove with anyone. It's about time.

Clarissa: Skip to the "Hehehe" parts, will ya!

Arognat: Alright, okay, let's see...

I don't talk about this much, but I've come to notice some peculiar things about Cross. Like the way he speaks when he's on his downtime. He speaks with this light accent and his grammar lacks complete words and sentences sometimes. Although I usually become annoyed by things like this, I don't become irritated when he does it. I think it's flattering and in some odd way, charming.

Clarissa: Hehehe!

Diana: *giggles* Oh dear, that's so adorable.

Adelise: Awww!

Katherine: ^_^

Arognat: What a sap. Okay, it says...

What's more is I find myself extraordinarily captivated by his eyes. This look inside of them when his mind has wandered. They draw me in. There's the way he drinks his drink, the way he leans back on the bar, the way he carries himself. There's his rough and kind gestures and his unmatched wit.

I cannot pretend like I haven't noticed his appearance. He's handsome. Very, very, attractive. Being in his presence has given me this feeling of my heart being pushed out of my sternum. Maybe I've fallen ill. I've been feeling feverish lately...maybe some rest will get these things off of my mind.

*turns page* I think that's the end of the entry.

Clarissa: Read another entry!

Arognat: Let's see here...let's skip ahead a coupla months... Alright, here we go..


December 3, 2009

I cannot deny it anymore. These feelings I've developed, unlike any I've ver known...It's love. The very feeling I've awaited for 33 years of my life. What's more, I've fallin inlove with my best friend. I'm a mess though, how can I do this to him? He must not feel the same, right?

I can't be inlove, my father...the Order, they need their lieutenant with a clear head. Love will only fog everything up, but...I can't stop what my heart feels. I love him and I want to be by his side more than anything I've ever wanted before in my life.

I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I should let him know. No, perhaps I should just talk to Melanie about this. That's for the best. Dammit, Cross...

Arognat: Here's the most recent!

April 14,2009

The Spring Festival in Gambino Isle has come atlast. I never appear at those things but because of certain circumstances I must go this year. I wanted to ask Cross if he'd come with me, since I messed up our Valentine's Day. If things go right, then maybe it's best I let him know that I'm feeling what he is.

My father is no longer a problem. He understand that I cannot feel this for anyone else and has given me his blessing. I can only hope he'll keep his word and let me live my own l--

*book gets snatched up*

Emily: >= / Are you all enjoying yourselves?

Arognat: Yes, as a matter of fact.

Clarissa: She did it! It was all her idea!

Katherine: *gets up and hurries over to her bedroom*

Diana: *goes back to knitting*

Adelise: *whistles a little and looks over there*

Emily: I can't believe you all would invade my privacy like that. What have you read?! D8<

Arognat: Nothing! Er, well, we read about your being inlove with Cross.

Emily: >= /