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You know I never thought Id get to the point that I hated someone so much that just their mere presence would make me mad, or rather their comments.
Kimaya you know and will understand what I'm talking about

I was online talking with my cousins, to my dismay I saw my cousin (in law), who I refer to as the storm cloud, was hanging with them. My cuz Jade said she got dermal anchors piercing on her chest. Everyone disapproved of it, not because it was bad, but the place where she had it. It just made an excuse for people to stare at her chest, and she was only 16, just a tad to young for that yet.

The 'storm cloud' had not said a SINGLE word, but at that moment commented that it was cute.
Now I have no other reason for my reaction other than I just hate the storm cloud so much that I wanted to say or act so rashly. Of course I restrained myself but heres what I wanted to say...

How in ******** hell is that cute? its not! I mean its just a little silver dot in the middle of her boobs! which frankly, if it can be seen by everyone, then I suggest a better shirt. Are you much of a people pleaser that you'll like anything, or say anything to anybody just so that they like you more? I really ******** hate you...your always telling some kind of lie.

Yea thats what I wanted to desperately to put in the IM convo, but I didn't because there was no reason for it. I mean damn what the hell sparked that little paragraph? "its cute" I mean theres no other reason for me to say such a hard thing, but there it is.

I mean all the uncle and aunts even pretend that they like her, but they don't. I know they don't, they have admitted (under some drunk instances) that they are not fond of her. My fellow cousins said they hate her skinny a** attitude and fake painted on personalty and face, how she's constantly saying how her parents hate her or even worse how she thinks shes 'hood'.
b***h tiring weed, hanging and dating with other people who think their hood doesn't make you gangster.

If it did I (or rather the WHOLE FAMILY ON BOTH SIDES) would be ******** gangsta! (not the dateing part I mean) But no! I know who and what the ******** I am! They ******** know who they are, so I suggest you find out who the hell you REALLY are so you can find some bitches that ACTUALLY like you.

Also for the record I understand that she may hate her parents, I understand that they may even hate her. I mean its not like its never happened before, but to the level shes contantly complaining about cannot be true. Why? because if they ******** hated her that much they would have never sent her to
THE ONLY CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL IN HER AREA! PLUS A HIGH GRADE COLLEGE I mean if I ******** hated my kid that much, b***h you bet their a** is going to public school all the way! ******** that! That money would go to a nice house and a flat screen. Rather yet they would have been aborted because she was hated at birth. If not she would have been given to an orphanage.


God just looking at her picture, reminds me of her whinny voice and the fake cheery personality, I just wanna punch a wall, rather her face! Why do I have to know such a person? I mean...just why!?! I wish I never met her, I really can't say that about anyone, no matter the b***h they been to me.

For example, my great friend Kimaya, yea shes a b***h, shes ditched me at dances, she looks down on herself also thinking that shes fat (when shes not), and of course might have lied in my face, or encouraged me to lie to my own parents, ask me for the unreasonable, and to do little tasks for her. Plenty of other things in public that would and have made people in the past say "You really shouldn't have to take that s**t from her" or "You shouldn't be friends with her anymore"
You know why were still friends to this day?

We can honestly say s**t about one another and put it aside. When I tell her I look fat, she tells me to stop eating s**t. When I asked her what about me annoys her, she tells me to my face that I reuse the same jokes. When shes about to buy something and asks if I like it, I can say no, but she'll but it because SHE likes it.
When she talks to someone she will say s**t to their face be it in public or in school.

Also she rarely says thanks to me...not's not the plus part I'm talking about. If someone always says thanks to you, you think nothing of it later then they really mean thanks. Its one thing to say those two simple words, its another to acknowledge the fact that you treated the other person like s**t at times, but overall say "Yea I was a b***h, I put you through hell, but you still stood by me so...thanks" let alone that be in a paragraph saying all the shitty things they did to you then say thanks
Or that reminder that someone is listening to you even if they don't look like it. Such as the instance of my locker not being decorated on my b-day at school after the death of my grandfather (who I was close to). It was a little thing that meant a lot to me. I mentioned it and LORD AND BEHOLD the next day it was decorated, that s**t made me cry of happiness that I had a damn good friend when it counted (actually its making me smile and cry atm)

There wasn't any lies for attention between us or for her with other people. If she wanted their acknowledgement, she would say hi and take interest in their life's. Not b***h and whine about her parents hating her 24/7, or rather when someone talks about something bad that happened to them, try to one up them on it. So that they look 'interesting' or so that you ******** feel so bad for them that you want to 'help' and 'understand their pain'. Pain can be ranging from big stuff like surgery, to small crap like cuts. No matter what it is she WILL one up you on it...

You had to go to the dentist and get 1 tooth pulled?
Shes had 4 pulled and they used to much numb meds

Your grandparent died on Christmas?
Her family's died on every holiday ever CONCEIVED

Afraid of spiders or insects?
She has a phobia of them and will cry and hide

Don't like the taste of milk?
Well at least you can drink milk because she THINKS shes lactose intolerance

You have minor sunburn from being at the beach and have somewhere to be?
Shes 'thriving' in pain pronouncing loudly at the family party for no one to touch her because its THAT painful...keep in mind that you will see her hugging family members hours later only being in 'pain' when someone asks about the burn


I can never stand her, I never want to see her face again. Gladly I don't have to...