"Where are we supposed to go?" I asked Traum. She shrugged and we looked around for the other classes. When we rounded a corner the kids were sitting along the wall in this ridiculously long corridor. "Oh, nevermind," I said.
Then my dream shifted to the cafeteria full to maximum capacity of students and staff members. The cafeteria was huge! XO So I'm at a table in the arms of the person I fell the hardest for. Serephix Zakiel Vamlyn. He was sitting in one of those hard blue chairs facing away from everyone at the table. I was standing in front of him with my arms around his neck and his around my waist.
Then all of a sudden the people behind him start pulling on his hair till his face is completely red and he's yelling in pain! In desperation I pull his head back to me with as much strength as I can muster up. I finally manage and his scalp is a bright red. He turns to attack his attackers but I pull him back to me and he looks at me with infuriated eyes. "No?" he asks me. I look at him and in a loving tone say, "No."
He hugs me burying his face in my stomach and says, "Okay, I love you." "I love you," I say back to him. And then it's back to the hall. After everyone gets a map and a pen and a packet, we all file onto the buses and head off to wherever it is we're going.
Waking up from that dream had me realizing that I'd buried my feelings for him for nearly 4 months. Since that dream I'd been reminiscing about all of our conversations and all the times we'd spent together in eighth and ninth grade till he had to move to Texas in September. Then today, today I just had to tell him. I had to. Something was just nagging and nagging at me to do so and the parental units can't keep me away from anyone I don't want to be away from for much longer.
So far they've basically forbade me from three people. But I'm still going to try and be by them. And Serephix...I still love him. I guess I always will, just like I always said I would. Now I just have to focus on breathing and the rest of my life. That's all that's left to do for us. We finally have some closure and I can sort of breathe.
So I had to because I couldn't breathe keeping all of this to myself. razz
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