"Back to square one" *sighs* sweatdrop 'Will be dropping out of nursing college due to scoliosis and start searching for another college university that offers good business courses sad This means "bye-bye" to my dream of getting to medschool, and becoming a doctor crying See, even if I took up another pre-med course, once they see my health records, there's a 99.9% chance they'd reject me, anyway. Plus the risk of it getting worst will appear sooner or later even if I did push through with that dream of mine sweatdrop
The day before Mom's operation I have finally decided to drop out of nursing regardless of my original plan of at least finishing the first semester. I figured I was just wasting my time. If I can't make my dream come true, at least I should make my life useful by being of help to the people around me, right? xp I should be going back to what I'm supposed to do (or become) sweatdrop Help out my parents with their business, learn as much as I can in the corporate art of earning money, and achieve my first million as young as I possibly could rolleyes It's so ironic that the things I tried to stay away from the most (no, I don't do drugs-- I meant my parents' vision for me) are the things that I will end up sticking with gonk
I haven't officially dropped out yet, because my time was wasted dilly-dallying in the hospital during my wait for Mom's operation to finish; As much as waiting or thinking about her nagging irritates me to the core, I just didn't have the heart to leave her in that condition although my school is but a few streets away. I will have to drop out on the day of midterm exams itself, and hope that the school will no longer charge me of any fees.
Through the past few months I've gained myself some good and fun friends whee It's such a shame that again I'll have to be the first one to leave sweatdrop This wouldn't be the last time I'd see them of course (we can always just set a hangout day whenever we have free time); It's just that recently I can't help but remember how many times I go from one place to another then always be the first one to leave sweatdrop I'm starting to wonder now if it's supposed to be one of the most frequent cycles in my life xp
Ah, well. I guess it's much better to always be the first who always leaves than being the one who always gets left behind sweatdrop
 Blackmetal angel-Xiaumei- · Fri Aug 27, 2010 @ 11:51am · 0 Comments |
