Well, I guess this will be about just about anything that happens in my life. Not much to write but sooo much drama that it would be a great soap opera haha
Ugh...
Well, the weekend went over pretty badly. It had ups and downs. Curtis got mad at me for going to a bonfire Friday when Cody *the person who was having the bonfire* didn't have his girlfriend there yet and also I was told by Curtis I'm easily manipulated and then he claimed if I didn't lose my attitude I'd lose him. Way too much drama and arguing for me to handle. Then Sunday he came down for a bit and I just pretty much stayed depressed all day and today he brought up the attitude stuff again at lunch and I got depressed again but I guess I hid it pretty good cause he never said anything about it. It's just been a long weekend plus today and tomorrow he wants me to go to some scavenger hunt with him and I'm already dying of cramps but I said I'd go and then this weekend he's coming down Friday and then Saturday *to no suprise* he's going to Ryan's house and Sunday he's coming back down. From what the school says trick-or-treating around here is Saturday so Curtis won't be here to pass out candy and stuff with me. I guess that's okay though. At least he can go hang out with Ryan... I'll just see if he'll be around next year to pass out candy with me. Wednesday is our 9 month anniversary and I'm thinking about asking if I can go to his house. Our arguing seems to be getting worse. I'm always doing something wrong and then it isn't my fault and I have no reason to cry and I'll just go jump infront of a train are all said. It hurts but I'm living with it and I've about got to where I just don't have any emotions when we argue. I don't get the attitude stuff because most of the time I only have an attitude when we start to argue which is almost everyday now. But I guess I'll have to work on it. One of the many other things to add to the list of my inperfections that get on everyone's nerves. I swear I'd change myself anyway Curtis tells me to and really... That isn't too good because I'm scared I'm going to lose who I really am while I'm changing to seem perfect to him. I guess I'll find out sometime. Not much else to rant about today...