I know no one really reads this or all of it.. This will be long because I have so much on my plate...
First off my family really doesn't know me... What kind of mess is that? I mean they think I am selfish and uncaring and unforgiving, when I am opposite... How does that work. And I am feel heart broken because the one girl I "loved" loves guys.. And another I started to like a lot is so far away... I don't understand what everyone wants form me... I am seriously on the verge of a complete break down.. I know I am not doing it right now because I only have a few tears and my break downs are just a mess.. And to think about it I only really "talk" to one person about my problems because everyone else I talk to seems to brush me off or just completely doesn't understand. I don't understand what to do, I truly just want to be held right now... I am suppose to be the strong willed and powerful one, but I don't want to be at the moment. I love helping and being there for others but when I need someone there is no one in sight... How convenient is that right? Well my heart is broken into a million pieces and I am trying to put this puzzle back together so I an "love" once more, but it is so hard on my own and I know I have to be alone before I am with someone, but how can I be "the best girlfriend" when I get treated like dirt, walked on, or all that... I just don't know I am depressed, stressed, and alone wit my own problems because I am terrible at talking with others that just don't "get" me....
hanks for those who tried to read and understand... If you didn't understand its cool not lot do, if you do.. Well that is good I guess..
First off my family really doesn't know me... What kind of mess is that? I mean they think I am selfish and uncaring and unforgiving, when I am opposite... How does that work. And I am feel heart broken because the one girl I "loved" loves guys.. And another I started to like a lot is so far away... I don't understand what everyone wants form me... I am seriously on the verge of a complete break down.. I know I am not doing it right now because I only have a few tears and my break downs are just a mess.. And to think about it I only really "talk" to one person about my problems because everyone else I talk to seems to brush me off or just completely doesn't understand. I don't understand what to do, I truly just want to be held right now... I am suppose to be the strong willed and powerful one, but I don't want to be at the moment. I love helping and being there for others but when I need someone there is no one in sight... How convenient is that right? Well my heart is broken into a million pieces and I am trying to put this puzzle back together so I an "love" once more, but it is so hard on my own and I know I have to be alone before I am with someone, but how can I be "the best girlfriend" when I get treated like dirt, walked on, or all that... I just don't know I am depressed, stressed, and alone wit my own problems because I am terrible at talking with others that just don't "get" me....
hanks for those who tried to read and understand... If you didn't understand its cool not lot do, if you do.. Well that is good I guess..
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