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The 23rd and 21st and what not are all approaching. What is significant about those dates?

My friends said they wanted to visit me.

I'm betting that they both ditch. I'm betting neither of them comes through. My friends never do. Haha.

This isn't to say that they aren't great friends, because they are. They are spectacular. I've just... long since realized that I can't hold out hopes with them. I'm killing off that part of me that plans things for my friends and goes to loads of trouble to make each event special.

No more.

I refuse to give them every part of me anymore. They are going to have to suffer like everyone else. They will be lied to. They will be cared for but no longer trailed after like I'm their ******** pet dog. No more. If they drop me because of the lack of attention, ******** them.

I'm killing some of the best parts of me.

I'm distancing myself from my worlds,
and only I know why.

My old online friend Roku said she would contact me. Oh really? Nope. Haven't heard from her. Well golly gee, isn't that just surprising. PSSSSSSh. Nope. Same thing. different category

( I'v been drinking, sorry )

I won't go to the trouble to be online for other peoples' to,e zones anymore. I won't be the person excited everytime I see them or ubiy expensive gifts or support them in ther every endeavr. I'm gonna be an average frirne. No more extraordinary. I'm tired of being treated so poory for how much I gie. No more.

NMO ******** MORE.

I sould slepe after I fnish this glass. My fingers are tingle. Hit me all at once I tell you. I can sti.l think just sluggish and lazy to fiz things/ Feels good little lopsided. Funny right? Haha. I think so o___o seroouisy