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Someone needs to find me.

All this stress is making this manic state even worse.

It was bad enough that I was scared of the dark this week but now... I'm starting to lose it. I'm losing it.

I can't watch any more movies with mental institutions in them.

Not this week.

I have to be careful.

I need to be careful right now.

I'm not in danger but I'm getting out of control. I'm rocking back and forth. My thoughts are rapid. I want to run. I am wearing my speical make-up. I am dressing up for fun. I am dancing in the dark. I am getting through it.

I am fine.

I want someone new. I want someone special. I want someone to steal my ipod. I want someone to notice these things in my heart that ache and swell. I want that part of me to be shared again. I don't want to keep these to myself. No one gets it. No one gets how special it is to me. No one gets that IT IS MY ******** SOUL.

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Oh Lord. Lordy lord.

PLEASE.

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swoop shoop shoop.