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Well..Yesterday In PE. My friend (B) was singing this song so then my other friend (J) reminded me of my other firend (A) So J's like doesn't that remind your of A? And then I started to cry becase I haven't talken to him in a really long time and we used to be so close. Now I feel like we're drifting apart. So then J told A that he made me sad in the class they have together. Then A said that WHen I'm sad he's sad. Then that made me really sad. Then I have to talk to him on monday. Or i could just call him...

(cont..) Stroy about A
We were friends since last year. We liked eachother since then... We never confessed of liking eachother but you could always tell that we liked eachother. It was so obvious. One day I got so mad at him I sad I hate him... I made a mistake then... We made up really quickly. He got a girlfriend, I got a boyfriend... We were still best freinds though We would sit near eachother in class hang out with eachother during recess. He actually hung out with me more then his girlfriend. Once he found out that I was going out with somebody. He stopped talking to me for a little bit. Then once he figured out I was single he started to talk to me again. I was stupid and didn't realize he liked me. So I acted as though we were friends. Once Jr. High hit. He said Hi to me in the halls, we ate lunch together ocasionally. I was lost... He dumped his girlfriend one day (I was there) We walked home together that day. He told me he liked me and he dumped her for me. I thought he was kidding but you could tell he wasn't kidding. I wanted to cry but I put on a smile and and didn't say anything. I was so confused I didn't know what to say. It was like a dream that I thought would never come true. it was like a thought that was washed away from my mind. I told him I loved him. We were standing there in the cold autumn day. The colored leaves falling and the wind blowing..cars passing by us. Then... we said we couldn't go out... Then he just didn't talk to me anymore. I told J that I was sad about that so she told him. And then he said I'm sad when She's sad. So now I have to call him or talk to him.


Converstion I've been thinking of::
Hey. I was wondering why you aren't talking to me. I miss talking with you. You always make me happy. I was wondering if you miss me as much as I miss you. I can't stop and lay in my bed staring at my wall thinking of all the things you've done... I don't think that I can stand being away with you. (if i don't start crying now I'll probally let him talk for a little) crying


My life is so messed up. I feel like crying right now.


"You're only a whisper now"