I know my period kicks my a** every month. It takes a toll on my emotions and my hormones just ruin my life.
I get overwhelmed with everything. From my mom eating away my foodstamps to not having a job or not being able to see my girlfriend. Its very stressful for me to do what I love (YouTube) and no money coming in from it. Its so stressful to find places that will hire me. I keep calling McDonalds and they just tell me the same s**t. "Our hiring manager isn't here, call back later." They even told me "They'll call you if they're intersted." Like s**t, I just want a job, I am qualified to work there for ******** sake just give me the damn job.
It doesn't help that my mom is ruining my emotions. She doesn't do anything, so I feel stressed with everything. I clean and cook. I am the ONLY person in this house who cleans the house and I buy the food, cook it all and feed my family with food stamps that don't even belong to them. I'm breaking the law and it scares me. I'm scared that one day I'll get caught and I am terrified for my life.
I am so scared of everything. I don't like living in my moms house. I want to move out, I say it everyday. My mom is emotionally abusive and my dad is starting to notice it. I'm scared to get help. I'm scared to hurt my mom and get blamed for her having a heart attack if she gets too stressed.
I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND NOT STRESSED. My period has even started a few days later than usual. Its so sad that I'm stressed about having all this responsibility. Not to mention, I might have aspergers and I can't afford to see a doctor to see if I actually have it.
I AM SO SCARED.
 Canis Baileyi Lupus · Sun Apr 19, 2015 @ 08:53pm · 0 Comments |
