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As you guessed last night was not a good night, as I said in my last update I am hallucinating again and don't go in to see the doctor until Monday morning, and work night shift.
So what could have been so bad about last night at work? A lot. First off I was getting my walkie-talkie when the lights went out so I finished signing out my walkie and grabbed a headlamp light before I started walking to the front asking customers to please start heading to the front as I went, as I was suppose to. As I walked and stopped to talk to customers I thought 'well this isn't so bad so far.' since the emergency power was still going but I knew that the rest of the lights were going to go out if the electric was out for to much longer. Sure enough the lights went out but I couldn't help thinking 'You're okay, you're okay." Over and over again. As the night went on I finely told an old friend who I know I can trust to tell a secret until I'm ready to tell. He seemed cool with it and even said if there are places I get scared to go to he'll do his best to go with me. Normally I would have Jeffrey but he was outside pushing in carts and I felt I had to tell someone and with me living in the bible belt it can be hard to find someone who doesn't think I'm possessed. As the night went on I saw and heard a few things I shouldn't have but not to badly, At the end that wasn't the only thing that went wrong.
Also a coworker who I have been getting along with lately but is lazy started saying my Jeffrey is lazy even though everyone else agrees Jeffrey is a very hard and good worker.
Also I got a late lunch and when I get hungry I get weak and sluggish so I wasn't feeling very well. My manager told me to stop moping around and even after I told her what was going on she might as well have called me a liar and was very sarcastic to me, even her sorry for being sarcastic was sarcastic.
In the end it was a very bad night.

Side note, I called my mom today. She said my step-father who I think is an awesome match for my mom and wish he was my real dad is losing blood somewhere... I may lose my daddy... sad