Mood ~Cold (Even as I type...I can't feel my fingers!!!! crying )~
Music ~Owner of a Lonely Heart -Yes (Another Favorite)~
I am sitting in my parents shop. FREEZING! I swear it has to be 40 degrees in this tin can of a building. Since my hands are ultra sensitive to the cold I have to keep them moving so they don't stiffen up on me (having TWIGS for fingers would be better! scream ) I usually don't drink coffee (which would surprise me if this was last year or so) but today I made and exception as it is a hot liquid and I an ice block.
The holidays have always been a particularly trying time of year. The "Holiday Cheer" as people might call it was rather like useless roadrage and infernal rudeness unlike anyother time of the year. To what end I cannot be sure. On the other hand some people (at least when they aren't driving) have some sort of cheer. As my father pointed out to me there are people who suddenly feel a certain sense of brotherhood come over them. Or rather suddenly they are nice and no one but them can figur the motives. But maybe I'm not as trusting as I used to be. In any case this time of year seems to be one if not the ONLY time of year I feel obligated to do something nice for my fellow creatures. This year I was unable to get my father much of anything but I doubt he minded. I got my mother a pair of Tanzanite and Diamond earings (she cried...as always) and my father got her her much desired portable DVD player (she cried again...) My friends I am still working on...I have some ideas but not much (Fu Fu is a hard one...what to get him...anything scarlet or crimson might be good xd )
In a certain sense I desire to be at school again (my innumerable dreams of it do not help any stressed ) If only to see all those familiar faces I treasure. whee heart Even of those I don't care for. Seeing my worst enemy (if I could ever have one xp ) would be a gift, almost, from doing nothing but sitting in a freezing shop or sitting in my far off and secluded home! I know almost everyone I come across at school. Not personally though...only by face. I watch people (a habit I picked up in my early years from not having anyone to do anything with) and I watch for them again if they make an impression on me, which most do given our schools frequency of the odd and unusual. So on my path to whatever class I come across those I know. I watch them, listen in, and eventualy store their story in my brain for whatever reason. I feel like a computer sometimes. Then again maybe I am Deathe, remembering peoples life. Well anyways we go back the Third so no long wait there.
I am writing a story for my character at the behest of Fu Fu. I was going to write it in First Person but decided othewise. It it much easier and far more fun to write it from without, much better.... Only I'm not sure I have enough ideas so I think I'll study some mythology to get some ideas...
<center>In the stone like wave of shadow
Come like hatred born of this
I wait for it to pass of me
But it leaves me dark and hollow
A strike without a miss
Now through me I can see
I thought that I could withstand
Was I so weak to give in
How could I even try
Now I need someone to take my hand
But where do I begin
What causes me to cry
In a flash the shadow goes
But I'm still hollow inside
I try to smile but it pains me so
Now I'm on the path I chose
There is no more reason to hide
And for this I must go</center>
 Paranine · Wed Dec 29, 2004 @ 06:13pm · 4 Comments |
