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My sis stayed home from school today cuz she wasn't feeling well
I worked on my site adding some music videos and some other stuff and me and my sis would watch them. Around 12:30 me and her started to get hungry so we went into the kitchen to get some lunch. We didn't know where dad was b/c he wasn't in his normal spot on the couch watching tv. Anyways we were getting lunch and dad comes up behind me and hits my arm and says i'm not touching you. Then he continued to annoy me and my sister. My sister was adding different things to her lunch and he was bitching about what she was putting in it saying that he wouldn't eat it like that. Then my sis went back to the fridge to put some things away and my dad hit her arm and was saying some other stuff, i was doing my best to ignore it all. After i had finished making lunch i started to walk outta the kitchen and back into my room and dad stood right in my way and blocked both ways around him but sticking out his arms. So i took his arm and puched it outta the way and he was yelling something at me and started following me into my room until i shut the door and then he stoped bugging me and started to annoy my sister again. I finished eating and took the stuff back into the kitchen to put it in the dishwasher and he started to bug me again he wouldn't shut up and it was annoying the living hell outta me.

I can't wait to get outta here....i'm fed up of this s**t everyday he does everything in his power to piss me off or annoy me. Being here means that i'm with dad and away from the person i want to be with.

My dad doesn't want me to be with him but do you think i even remotely give a s**t about what he want or what he thinks.

I can't ******** wait to be out and away from him and with Neil. The only person who makes me happy.

I can't stand being here, being alone. I'm fed up of this darkness that keeps trying to take me. I want to be with my light, with my love.

I don't want to cry anymore, i only want to cry tears of joy.

xX~*.:Becca:.*~Xx