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Well, last tuesday i finally went to see my girl. 20 hours on a public bus-line to some tiny s**t town up north in Iowa with one half assed game store. ONE! lol.

Well, originally my friend Cameo (my girlfriend's mom's boyfriend, remember?) said that he would have a hotel ready for me and he'd pick me up when i got there. Well, when i got there not only did nobody get me for about 4 and a half hours, but cameo didnt even have any money OR a hotel. (I wasn't supposed to stay with them because i would "distract" Sami and she has been missing alot of school) Well, eventually i ended up staying there anyway, which was MUCH easier.

Also, on the following saturday Sami got in trouble so as her punishment i DID have to go to a hotel. I acted real cool about it but in reality i was so pissed off. I was only there to see my love for one week and on the weekend day where i could spend all day with her i couldnt frikken be with her. Anyway, the last two days were great, 'cause i got to sleep with sami (no sex, you perverts xp ) It was only gonna be the last night where i got to sleep with her, but i missed the bus and had to get a different one. So i got another night with muh gurl (awesome heart )

Well, not much else to say. The trip back was more than 25 hours and i was sick with no money for food the entire time, and i kept thinking about the sad, sad face sami was making while i drove off. God, i wanted to kill myself. I made her so sad by leaving... i never want to hurt her like that... and now she's alone... I'm gonna fix this... soon. I have to...