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2/16/07
7:30

im so afraid of 2morow. I plan 2 call my lost friend that now has been found. If i dont pull through this is Y. I dont have the # i was promissed. I'm afraid he will take a call from a friend long gone weird. It will have been 2 months since he left. Or cuz i cant bear to hear from him again.

y cant i be stronger. Thats what i asked myself the 1st time. I should have told him long ago that i was gay. Now i will tell him. Telling him i love him. That will take some tim. Kyle, if you are reading this jurnale in the future, and i havent told you, ask me. It would be easier if i wasnt the one 2 bring it up. "i cant wait to get ur gaia."

Now i am alone. Alone to talk 2 you my jurnal. To get this off my chest. Plz dont be mad if i tear this page out someday. so alone, so dead inside.