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Right, now I can add someone randomly found on a dating website generally taken as a wind up to the list of people I can't compete with when it comes to relationships. The list before that included "girls" and "no-one at all", so it's really coming to look like a tale of wow.

Didn't really help that I just spent a few hours in a room with many couples, one of which is the aforementioned one, with a girl that I kind of semi-liked and I thought semi-liked me. It's quite funny, in that while someone else noticed that I liked her, she didn't. I gather that this happens a lot, but still, it's kind of harsh. Especially when the realtionship started a week ago and now I end up sitting next to them snuggling into each other.

Even worse is that the guy is like me in some ways, and I think that I'm going to get on really well with him. Meh.

But it seems like anything I try just turns out wrong. If I ask someone out, they just turn me down, but if I wait and expect something to come out of friendship nothing does.

Wow, I sound so bitter. I'm not really, and I think that they'll go well together. It's just kind of irritating when it seems that everyone has a few ex-es and most people are in a relationship now. Either I just don't know what to do, or the right person hasn't come along yet. Perhaps I'm just waiting for the right person. But then I worry that the right person will come and go.

Bleh, why do I do this to myself. I should just let it happen. Again, circumstances make just sitting back and watching everyone else hard.

So this is a lonely androidkiller, signing off being hopeful for the future, but hoping something like this doesn't happen again.