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so my life was shot with a shotgun then as it was getting up it was hit with a bat and now as i lay there hasping for breath it was hit with a tank shell....so my life officially sucks and its all my fault....one of my closest friends is stealing my gf and my gf is falling for him and its to far now to do anything about it....all i can do is sit, watch, hope and wait.....so i feel like im standing on the edge of a cliff waiting for it to give out under my wieght...... and i had the feeling this was going to happen even before her and i were dateing....i was just too blind to see....i really have lost my only few reasons to live....the love of my life and my friends....but it, is in the end my fault no matter what people say it is and always was...MY FAULT....i wasn't even supposed to be born...im a manifestation of my fathers stupidity.... and i geuss im just as stupid as he is.......i'm not supposed to exist so i geuss i just shouldn't..... all im doing is causeing pain for me and those around me.....