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Heres my quote of the day...Tell your mom that no one knows your leaving and never coming back.

So my mom has been planning to move to brandon. and i knew that. It was a month or to she told me she was looking for a house. So i go to skool the next day and told my friends. then yesterday she tells me that were moving june 15, and that if i want to stay for the rest of the skool year to ask my dad. so i call my dad and he says i can live with him as long as i need to. i always thought i would want to tell my friends when i'm moving for sure. ( i even played a prank on them saying i moved over spring break) but now that its official i didnt want to tell any one for a while. So i call my friend and ask if i can stay at her house this weekend because my parents were going to move to brandon. (she knows we go there all the time cuz my grandpa lives there) So she assumes there just visiting. but there really going to look at a house. I don't want to go look at a frickin' house that I don't evern want to live in! WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO MOVE! I DON'T WANT TO! crying I go to a skool with people i've been best friedns with since grade 1, and she expects me not to try and move. or run away! so at supper today im on the floor opening the box of cola and my mom goes-
"since i'm not working tomarrow were gonna pack. and i mean neatly...Why are you on the floor hiding?"
I'm hiding from my friend because I didn't want her to know that were moving and i din't tell her yesterday when i called her. She was wondering why i couldn't stop crying but i never told her. s onow my friend knows. but she's really close to me and knew not to bring it up to me again. wich i was glad about. I didn't want to talk about it. WHY WOULD I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT! I AM IN COMPLET DENILE OF MOVING! I LOVE IT HERE! evern though there isn't much to do in Winnipeg...i love it. the only thing i'm worried about is her telling some of m other close friends thinking that they deserve to know or something. I mean...I guess they do kinda deserve to know...But i don't want them to know right now. crying So i feel like sh*t and everyone at skool can tell. and they know something is up beacause every time they ask me whats wrong i don't answer. I just dont't know what to do! i'm overwhelmed with emotions and its hard keeping all those frikcin' tears in. If I've asked you to read this i would reeealy apretiat some coments of support or guidenss please.