you hurt me you hit me you call me names i scream that im sorry but you still play this game you come with anger filled eyes i cower in my dark corner to hide why am i always regretting all the things i dont even do? will this really last forever, oh god i wish i knew is there really any reason whi i shouldn't hate you so? but still i long for your affection $%^& is sickening yes i know I am angry sore with hate i just want this all to stop! i can;t take it stop the ride! please just let me off! im crying the words that make you smile im facing the pain thats worth ur while im stumbling up the stairs but being dragged back down im crying in fear but you laugh at my frown no one knows what you have done excuse after excuse one by one tears spill freely from eyes of blue why do u hate me what did i do? i can't tell them because of a threat nightmares haunt me i cannot forget you may think %^& is cowardly but heres a riddle for you is it better to denie or hide the truth? sometimes i stand up to you but other time i simply quake as i sit here i start to cry this hate has killed me, let me die just take the knife and let it strike through go on and kill me i know you want to sometimes i feel like running away but id have to leave them with you i just cant stand this anymore i dont know what to do sometimes i want to end it all i dont really want to die but i think im going to fall oh please god have mercy on my poor pathetic soul i never wanted any of this my happiness you stole i close my eyes and dream that none of this is real i haven't written any of this this isnt pain i feel im not voicing my fears tonight im not telling my story to you you dont really know how i feel, the things i had to choose i dont know how why this happens to me could i have avoided it somehow? one day im gonna leave this place but im gonna hang on for now im crying now tears of glass oh please just let this end! and then you utter a quit word and im begging to you again i come crawling back to u and beg you please forgive! im sorry for what ive done thankyou for letting me live im so starved for your love i know i had it once before you used to think i was worth a bit and i need your approval once more!