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sooo.... I went to a dance today.

There was something different about this one.
first of all i'm single. no girlfriend, haven't had for a long time.
second, i've been thinking about life. i heard a quote
" Dont be to afraid of life to miss out on it."
i've notesed that 90% of my life i have been afraid. yes i do belive that i have missed out on life.
so now i'm trying to not be afraid.
anyway back to the dance
i was trying to not be afraid and all, and i think i was doing a grate job. dancing my heart out like a madman not giving a crap about anyone.
then i saw her
this girl
i dont know who she is or whats her name
but wow what a girl, she was dancing with her friends, and lucky for me no male in sight.
she was cute, blond, an incredibal dancer, and like Ben said " she has a nice @**"

so yah i guess you can say i like her.
this mystery girl
i wanted to ask her to dance. be like "hey would you like to dance with me, just one dance"
yah chezzy and all but i wanted to try.
just letting you know now i never did.........
i did dance next to her. she didnt know i was there i did at least its something.
when the first slow song came, i looked for her, i saw her leave the gym with her friends. i kew i wasnt going to ask her to dance with me on this song.

she did come back, long after the song was over
i spent the the rest of the dance waiting for another chance to ask her. i thought about asking her to dance for one of the fast songs. but i hesitated
i didnt know
do single girls like when some random guy comes up to them and asks them to dance even for one song
i like to think the answer is yes, but i have no idea how girls think
anyway another slow song did come. and she was there standing with her friends
i wanted to ask her. to not be afraid. but no i didnt. i just stood there thinking.
do i ask he , what if she says yes. if she says no. what about her friends. AHHHHH
before i knew it the song was over
the lights on
my friends talking about prom
everyone leaving
and her gone
and me single, alone, getting ready to go home
that was 10:00 pm Friday March 11, 2011 at the neon senior dance.
i dont think im ever going to forget that moment.
its not that easy, not being afraid
next is prom. you dint find cute single girls there. looks like im gonna have to find someone soon. wish me luck.

-Jan Swiatek