When i think of myself i see this big, curlie haired, crazy girl. One that wards off all the boys and needs to change her ways and who needs to stop wishing on true love so much. I wish i saw a beautiful girl who was head strong and had her life in order and the woman men want.... when i look into Rusell's eyes i can see the woman i want to be. I see my whole life in his eyes and i want it so bad. When im with him all the uneasyness leaves me and im happy. When talks it gives me butterflies and i never want him to stop talking. When he touches me i set on fire and i want more. When we kiss its like the world stops spinning and all that im a where of is me and him and the way i feel. When i lay next to him in my bed i feel... right? complete? one?... like im where i belong and i never want that moment to end for fear i will never have it again. I don't him to leave my side so i know that he is here and alive for when he is gone i worry that he may be hurt and i will never see him hear him smell him touch him, and i cant live a moment in my life without him. He has my heart and always will. He is my light in my dark place. My breath when i feel as though im drownding in a sea of anger and hurt. Before him when i was with another, i couldnt picture them in my life, they were just a phase i had to go through to get to him.Im thankful for them because without them i probably wouldnt have sneaked out that one night to meet him and i wouldnt have what i do now... an amazing man to hold me forever in his arms, to give me the love i need to survive, so that i can give him the love that he needs in return... i do love him with all my heart soul and life. You have it all Rusell.
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