I guess everyone has their low moments, those times where they feel like no one in the world understands them, and just an utter helplessness that wont go away
this must be one of mine
Pixie's dating Jude now, which is good,... for her
I still really really like him, and the more im around him, the more i realize it
I would never EVER ask her to dump him or anything, because that would be me and my selfishness punishing both of them
Plus i told her that she could go after him
I after all already have a boyfriend, a good one
But its so hard sometimes
Its not the first time this has happened either, third to be exact
Maybe our taste in guys is really similar, maybe shes just better at this than me
No, i know for a fact that shes better at getting the guys she wants than me
......even if that guy already has me
Whats so great about me though
Im just a pile of wierd cloths and fake personalities
I dont blame him
I guess this would be worse if i wasnt already used to never getting the guy i like, its been this way for years
I guess i just wish that i didnt like him
It seems that as time passes, and i find more guys, she seems to find the same ones
Until the day i die i will defend her though
to my mother, my aunt, my grandma, anyone
"Its just that she has a flirty personality"
"Shes just a go getter when it comes to guys"
But its getting harder and harder for me to say that without having doubt in my mind
I love her, I love her to death, Id lie for her, cry for her, and even die for her
i just wish that maybe shed........................... i dont even know
 SodaKid-SpookyKid · Tue Jun 02, 2009 @ 06:00am · 0 Comments |
