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All things have color but in the end it will all fade to black



Turkey Day from Hell This Thanksgiving week has been a handful of Hell. My depression is killing me and I'm haveing more grusome horrific nightmares than before. Sure I got to see my friends and get out of the house but it doesnt mean much knowing that horrific phantoms await you in your slumber. Im too afraid to even go get a glass of water for fear i might have a horror come to life and kill me. Plus I lost a friend Josh cus i was a stupid crazy homo :'( Yes I'm ranting on a Gaia Journal but i dont know what else ro do. My only comfort item was a small panda I hugged to keep me sane and I left that back in my dorm. All these horrific memories and nightmares are driving me to the brink... I have thought about self-mutilation like i used to do sad Im praying but it doesnt seem to help right at the moment. I JUST CANT SLEEP!!! SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!! crying crying crying crying

Posted by: Tblackemo Sat Nov 28, 2009 @ 05:40am



The Turkey is Dead and Sexy Ugh I going home for thanksgiving today. This ought to be interesting. I havent been home in 4 months because of college. I wonder what has changed? I wonder who has changed? I'm worried so much that people have drastically changed on me (its inevitable). neutral Either way this visit home should be quite interesting.... even if family time isn't the greatest at least I have HAM!!! HAM IS GOOD blaugh 3nodding I LOVE ROSES

Posted by: Tblackemo Tue Nov 24, 2009 @ 03:57pm

I LOVE ROSES