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I want to talk to somone,
Someone who will tell me it's okay,
Even if it's not.

I want someone to be here
Someone who will hold me,
even if it won't change anything.

But I can't call him
Because he won't care
I be left if more horrible feelings.

I could call her,
but she's having a good time somewhere else
And I don't want to bring her down.

I could call him and her or them
But I would feel stupid
asking them for their support.

I've got no one but myself.
I never knew how much I had isolated my emotions
from everyone else.


Where is that friend I need, will they ever come?
Would I push them away?
Would I depend on them too much?

Had that person.
A couple of them actually.
He, she, them.

One I pushed away
Because our relationship had grown tense.
And I can't seem to find the courage to fix it.

Another has gone away.
I never see her anymore.
Just a couple of glances in a pass by.

The last has become the problem.
For herself.
And for me.

Turns out I've learned an scary thing about myself.
And tonight is the most loneliest night of my life.
I night I'm forced to survive.