Well it's official, not only do people not listen to me, they don't respect me and will spare nothing for my feelings. My dad brought up something pretty embarresing and everyone made fun of me again. Even my little cousin whom I thought looked up to me, was laughing.
The whole thing was basically about me winning a contest. The contest was to make a cover for the poetry book. I got 4th place. At first he was proud, but then he found out that the teacher who was in charge of making the book was a basic skills teacher. So then he started making fun of me saying: "Haha in your face!" like a retarded person. At first it was funny, I admit. But he started telling my cousins and aunt, uncle and grandma.
Now, for my grandma's birthday, my uncle said: "Hey Nicole, J.P. won the retard contest, too!" And that got everyone's attention and the whole thing started again. Even J.P. my little cousin was laughing! I was so hurt again that I wanted to cry, I didn't, but wanted too. I had to go into the bathroom to calm back down. cry
We got Kiki and went back to my dad's house where I am now, instead of my mom's house, watched Naruto for some numbing minutes, but once it was over the pain came back. So, I'm now on here expressing my thoughts and feelings on this.
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I'm sick of lieing,
I'm tired of trying,
Yes, I'm smiling,
But inside I'm dieing.
I'm tired of trying,
Yes, I'm smiling,
But inside I'm dieing.
[I don't lie about everything! sweatdrop Just on things that might burdan the people I care about!]
