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Name: Faith Hennessy
Age: 17
Race: Human
Abilities: Pyrokinesis
Bio: Faith's parents died when she was 15, at the hands of a band of mercenaries. Since then, she has been a wanderer. She's met a few people over the two years she's been alone, and she's also aquired a few scars, skills, and habits. She may come across as paranoid, but she can't help it.
Other: Faith never travels without a rifle, a set of throwing daggers, a bow, and a full quiver of arrows. Just in case.

I guess I haven't updated in a while! Well, here goes...
My life seems to be getting mildly worse everyday...

First: My boyfriend hasn't spoken to me in 5 days now. Txt messages are unanswered, I can't call him 'cos he's always at work. I txt him to call me when he gets home from work, then wait up until 1am (he finishes at 12am), and the phone just doesn't ring. I'm slowly beginning to think he doesn't want me around anymore. Which makes me feel like the world's biggest idiot - I left my girlfriend for him, and at first he was the BEST - he called me on his breaks at work, he was ALWAYS txting me, and now I don't get anything. I haven't seen him for 2 weeks, 'cos he has no time for me - he's just too "busy".

Second: I have a crush on one of my friends - which complicates my relationship with my boyfriend more - it doesn't get in the way unless I'm left alone for a few days, which I have been. I've liked my friend for a few months now though, and I know he doesn't like me back. {{Oh, the story of my life}} Oh, the joys of your friends all being older than you by at LEAST 6 months, at most 4 years. (My friend that I like is 4 years older than me... We had the discussion about me liking him AFTER he kissed me... The phrase 'it's not fair on you because I'm older" was used... stare )

Third: My father's partner had their baby about 2 weeks ago on the 27th of June. I haven't seen her yet, and am still tossing up whether or not I even want to see her, because of who her mother is. My father's partner is the woman who pretty much made up my mind for me about not seeing my father. On christmas day she burst into tears over the present I bought her (a set of baby tops screen-printed with the word "Muffin" and a cute little anime muffin. "Muffin" was the baby's nickname before she was born. Her name now is Cassandra.), and refused to let Dad take a photo of her with them. In another instance last year she threatened to leave because I walked home instead of waiting at the train station for her and Dad to pick me up - I'd been told to walk home if they weren't there within 10 minutes. My phone was in my bag, so I didn't hear it go off. This resulted in her and I sitting in their room discussing things for close to 3 hours. I ended up apologising for numerous things that weren't my fault in the first place.

Fourth: I'm only really writing this because I have another hour and 40 minutes before I call it a night, and also because I'm feeling a little depressed. The truth of it is, this whole thing started because last night I lay in bed, wishing I wasn't alone. It's gotten to the point where I don't care if I ever have sex with my boyfriend - I just don't want to go to sleep every night and wake up every morning alone. I just feel like such crap crawling into bed each night... And then I feel like crap when I wake up in the morning and find there's noone next to me... I guess this is an issue that comes with being 17. I'm no longer old enough to bask in the glory of what I was finally allowed to do when I turned 16, but I'm not quite old enough to be an adult. I swear, 17 is the age at which you are TRULY a child. You may be allowed to get your license, a car, have sex, etc, but, your parents don't allow your boyfriend to stay over. Which is SO stupid, because my mum let my ex-girlfriend stay over, and my other friends are allowed their boyfriends to stay over. I HATE being 17!!!