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Yeah, today I guess I read a gaia profile of a guy named The_Misunderstood One, and I was really mesmerized by this guy. It said how he is into chivalry and how he's not a virgin and regrets it and I found myself thinking how guys like that are really rare. I was about to friend request him but I guess I just chickened out cuz I felt out of my league for some reason. stare It also said how he loves RPGs and stuff. I dunno know why I'm talking about him so much...he just seems....really interesting. Although he's 17 so...yeah way out of my league. Besides the more I get to know him the more I'd want to see how he looks like and I'd probably fall for him and stuff. (hate that about myself) emo But anyways about me:

-I love to wear gothic stuff even though my mom is really against it.

-I hate fake otakus

-I have low self-esteem

-I have 6 ex-boyfriends so far and I regret ever dating them.

-I have brown hair, brown eyes, wear glasses, 5' 2", weight: 110

-I'm 14 years old

-The love of my life is heart Sasuke Uchiha heart Reason: Well I really love his hair I'm not going to lie to you(i'm a hair person) but the way he sees himself as an avenger really captivated me. I felt so much sympathy at how he is all alone in the world and sees his only reason to live is to avenge his family. He tries so hard to get stronger and he's willing to give up anything for it too. He doesn't want anyone to exceed him at anything he's tried so hard to gain. I guess I just really relate to him. I also love the fact he's not girl crazy like that perverted Naruto. I hate perverts. I don't hate Naruto though, I'll just never fall for him is all.

-I'm desperately searching for my special someone. I'm always willing to give a guy a chance but only if it's going to be a serious relationship. I don't like "going out" cuz it seems like you're only using each other to make out and s**t. Then later you break up not too long. I hate that too. It's not my style. I'm more passionate than that. Too bad I wasted it with my exes. Yeah sorry I'm writing so much I just want you people to know me better. If you hate reading so much then you should just stop reading this now cuz it's gonna get pretty long since it's my first entry. Anyways I really want to find a guy who I'll love with all my heart and he'll do the same. But I want us to be in love for the right reasons like for what we believe in and how we see the world and the stuff we have in common. It would be nice if he wore black too. I don't wear that much black just a black shirt with blue jeans and black skater shoes(cuz they're comfy xp ) I used to wear all-black w/ eyeliner and a necklace of a mini-sword w/ a skull in the center but my mom threw it away cuz she thought it was "evil" (tch parents just don't understand) and I would always look so pissed, reason was because my mom was always giving me a hard time but I'll talk about that later. I used to dress like that in 7th grade. Everyone at school would call me a witch or emo and it really pissed me off. As if they knew me!! And it was mostly the preps. I hate those conceited sluts and gay assholes. At first I tried to not let it get to me but they just pushed it too far one day so I decided to stick w/ a black shirt with blue jeans and eventually that became my style.

-For now my reason to live on is anime and manga. The first anime I ever saw was Digimon. I still love it. I was crazy in love with Tai and Matt. God, what I felt whenever I would watch it was indescribable. It felt like I got a heavenly, anxious, eye-opener. The way I saw the world changed from then on. I began to think "Why don't I have a Digimon?" and "Why can't my life be that exciting?". That was when I was probably like 6 years old I think. Whenever I watched the show I'd be so amazed and my heart would start beating for some reason.
My 2nd anime I ever watched was Pokemon. I really liked it but not as much as Digimon cuz it came first but it was still really good. I stopped watching it as soon as they got rid of Mysti. That really ticked me off. I was hoping for her and Ash to get together and it just wasn't the same if Mysti wasn't there so I stopped watching it. Don't get me wrong it's still a good show it's just not the same as it used to be.
The 3rd is Sailor Moon. Even though I vaguely remember some episodes I know I love it. I would always try to draw Usagi but since i was like 7 i hated how she came out and i'd think "why doesn't it look like her?" so I'd keep trying to draw her more and more.
The 4th and my special one and only obsession is Inuyasha. I've been watching it since it came out on AdultSwim. That show...I can't put my words into how I love it so much. I felt a deeply strong connection between Kagome and me. I could really relate to her. Whenever she would cry because of Inuyasha loving Kikyo more than her, I would cry with her so much. Whenever she would smile happily, my heart would warm up. I loved Inuyasha for a while when I was younger but, Sasuke just takes the cake. I still remember how I used to love him. Whenever his hair would flow in the wind I could swear I would feel it in my face. And everything all the characters went through really motivated me. the story is just too beautiful. It really is like a fairy tale.

Once again sorry I'm writing so much I'm just that kind of person. stare

-Yeah...I'm a big time anime lover. I hate all those people that don't like anime for the right reasons and just like it cuz they want to be cool. Or w/e . I really want them to understand if they claim to like anime like "naruto" they better not say "because it has ninjas in it" or because it's "cool". Just because of ninjas?! and wtf can't they come up with a better reason than cool?? scream come on people go into more detail!!!!! what do you REALLY like about a certain anime?

-My reason for loving anime is a secret and only my friends who are real anime fans know. I don't want to post it here cuz some person might use it and claim it as their reason so yeah. if u want to know send me a message and I'll tell you. But only once I know ur reason first. (to see if ur a fake otaku or not)

-If a guy befriends me I most likely fall for him. I fall in love too easily.

-I hate getting my heart broken all the time(which I have)

-I live in McAllen, Texas

-I'm looking for true anime fans to befriend

-I love boys with long hair. Short is ok but not too short.

-I probably care about looks 45% and personality 55% sorry but it's true and I'm not going to lie about it. xp

-I hate people that stretch out the word "emo"

-I hate people that make fun of others when they've done nothing to them. I make fun and even insult the Preppy people but only if they deserve it.

-I'm Bi-sexual.

-You could say I'm boy-crazy. But I don't over-exceed it. I just fall for them too easily.

-and....I guess that's all I can think of right now. If you read all the way I thank you a billion times right now for suffering through this 4laugh
Please look forward to my next journal entry. Oh and I accept all friend requests just so you know ok? Till next time. wink