What a day...They say that monday is supposed to be the the day that I'm in a good mood, since I'm a cancer and all. But to be honest, I don't think that the charm is working. I mean sure I was feeling pretty good today. Not as tired or anything, but I just knew that a bad wind was coming my way. First of all, I forgot some assignments for 7th period, so It took up most of my time. And I got caught using the computer too much. (Don't we all) All I wanted to really do is juat relax, jut like in Summer. Summer, heh I really think that I took summer for granite. I really, REALLY miss it. 8th grade was harder than I thought. I even thought that I would flunk the 1st semester. *sigh* I really wonder how some people keep up with this kind of life style, like my friends. In fact, how much of friends are mine? I hardly talk to them, and when I do, I say something corny and they sort of ignore me. Sometimes I really wonder why I was put on this Earth. I really think I'm different from certain people. My mind can do more than one thing at once. Yet I always think that people were always better than me, and I underestimate myself. I can do a lot of things, but can only go so far with my abilities. Everyone has an ability, so what is mine? One word, IMAGINATION. That's it. That's all I can do. That's the only thing I can do. I can imagine the greatest things, not even I thought I would ever dream of, but by putting it in physical appearance, is something I can't do. Only so little I can do. I am too silly, I try too hard, and only when my esteem seems low, only Karma will reach out to me. Reach out to me in my mind, body, and soul. I always have something in my mind, but my body will always limit me to the least of my potential. Many people tell me I have to have confidence. Only then I obtain a ray of hope. Yet it doesn't last long. Only I can do something about it. And hopefully, only then I will be able to find myself.
~Moonflower
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No matter what I do, I will never find someone as deep as I am. But the real question is, "How deep really am I?"
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