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This is something fairly old that I wrote about a year ago now, and post where ever I go, so read and tell me what you think..
Have you ever dreamt of the perfect life? Great friends by side, who like you for who you are and not who they want you to be. Freiends who respect you and the things that you don't have in common. Friends who are always there for you no matter what. Friends that support everything you do even if their not really into whatever it is you want to do. Friends who know when you need to be cheered up. Friends that know you so well they know when something's wrong with you. Friends that will keep a secret when you want them to. Friends who will be their even if you don't need them but always know when to give you your own space. Friends that know when you need to be alone, and when you need a day to distract yourself from the toil and trouble of this world. The perfect friends, trustworthy, loyal,always there when needed. something that only exists in a perfect life. But this perfect life only exists in ones dreams. but there's so much more to this perfect life.
so, have you dreamt of the perfect life?
So you have the great friends, their always there for you, blah blah blah. But not only do you have the perfect friends, you have a great boyfriend/girlfriend(if ur a guy). who's there for you 24/7, when you need someone to cheer you up when your feeling down,. someone who makes you laugh. someone who in this life you'd be lost without, and the part that makes this all perfect is it's the person you've always wanted to spend your life with. That when you first saw them, it was love at first sight, that person who in reality barely give you the time of day, the person who doesn't even know your name. the one who probably doesn't even know you exist. where does this life exist?
So, where does this perfect life exist??
You have perfect friends and a perfect Boy/Girlfriend but this isn't reality. you know that all of this probably won't happen in reality. it's all a dream, you wish it was reality but it's not.
Everything is a dream, everything you've ever wanted, everything you'll need doesn't exist in reality, it's all an illusion an image, your mind creates so you don't feel so alone in this world, and your very alone.
For me all of what i have said is true for me, the friends I thought i had at one point in my life, it had seemed like they would always be there for me through everything and yet just when i need them the most, they bail out they make me face my fears and problems on my own and so i fall hard and fast. They betrayed me, people i called my best friends desert me in my time of need.
Then there's the whole boyfriend thing. the way my lifes been going i'll be alone for the rest of my life. No one's ever going to like me. The problem is whenever they look at me they see someone who's ugly, they don't ever try to bother to get to know the real me, they just judge me by what i look like.
So people like me make up fantasies about how we look the way we want and everyone likes us and hey know who we are, and we have the Perfect Life.
But it's all and Illusion, an image created by our minds so we don't feel alone and so we have something to hope for........a dream.
All my dreams may never happen. But I will not give up on them just yet. Recording artist, a writer, an anime Artist, a poet, to have a boyfriend, friends who will be there for me when i need them, no matter what. These are my dreams, and they are all possible, but right now they're just my dreams.........My Illusion.
 Kahara Michiyo · Fri Aug 05, 2005 @ 09:18am · 1 Comments |
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