Just me writing out things i've been feeling the past few months.. more like all year.
I wonder if you know how much I miss you. I wonder if you miss me too. I wonder if you know how much it hurts when I try to forget about you. I wonder if you try to forget about me and if it hurts you too. I wonder if you know how much I wish there were some way to fix everything. I wonder if you ever wish there were a way to fix everything. I wonder if you know how much I wish I could talk to you, even if it was just one more time. I wonder if you ever want to talk to me at all for at least one more time. I wonder if you know that I dream about you almost every night. I wonder if you ever dream about me too. I wonder if you know that I think about you all the time I wonder if you ever think of me. I wonder if you know that I can’t stop loving you and I don’t know why. I wonder if you still love me, or if you even did. I wonder if you know that I don’t understand why you broke a heart you once fixed. I wonder if you ever think about how you broke my heart. I wonder if you know that I can’t understand why you’d do what you did if you did love me. I wonder if you know that I don’t know how you could give up on us so easily if you did love me. I wonder if you know that I don’t understand how it’s seems to be so easy for you to ignore me. I wonder if you think not talking to me makes it easier for both of us. I wonder if you know that it doesn’t make it easier for me, it makes it worse. I wonder if you know that if you want me to move on from you, you need to start answering my questions. I wonder if you ever regret the decisions you made. I wonder if you know how much I wish I hadn’t said some of the things that I did. I wonder if you know just how much just having you in my life in some way means the world to me. I wonder if you know I’d rather have you as my friend than nothing at all. I wonder if you know how much it hurts me to think of being with someone who isn't you. I wonder if you know that sometimes i hope you meet someone who you'll love as much as i loved you but then that person will break your heart in the same way you broke mine and leave you with so many unanswered questions like you have to me. I wonder if you know that i hate myself for thinking those things. I Wonder if you know i can't help but think i'm to blame for a lot of things that have come to pass that led to all of this happening in the first place. I wonder if you know that there will be so many things I’ll wonder about until you start to answer me. I wonder if you know these are only a part of all the things I wonder about and that there will be more to come.
Kahara Michiyo · Thu Jul 02, 2009 @ 04:00am · 1 Comments |