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Today has been weird as hell...
I kept waking up all night from these weird dreams I had...
And the whole reason I've been sleeping so much is because I'm sick.

But, these dreams... they were so life like...
None of them were scary. Most of them were actually really happy dreams...
But... I don't know how I should take them...

The first one was of a friend of mine visiting. He said he was going to, and I only have to wait three more days. But, the whole time he was here, he sat there comforting me... I also gave him the letter /he/ wrote to me. Not him, the guy who was visiting, but just /him/.
I told him that holding onto that brings the memories back, and its causing me more pain that I need to be in. He was going to say something, when he took it, but I woke up.


I went back to sleep after that.

The next dream I had was of a friend I had just recently lost.
I was at the Cherry Blossom Blooming thing in Washington DC, which I actually plan to do this year. I was wearing my kimono, also... I was running around, smiling, laughing, trying to catch the random petals that fell.
I got tired...
So I went to a bench.
And I saw him there. We didn't really talk.
I laid down on the bench in front of him, and started cussing under my breath because I couldn't get comfortable.
I heard him try to stop a chuckle coming on.
I sat up, stretched, and laid on the arm rest, using my arms as a pillow.
I felt this weight shift onto me. I glanced up, and looked over. He was there, leaning against me, with his eyes closed, and a small smile on his face.
I opened my mouth to say something, and as soon as I forced a sound to come out, I woke up.


I few hours later, I decided to go back to sleep.
I had a new dream. I was with my band...
Me, Rob, Curtis, Ethan, Cush, and Zach.
Our band made it out there. We were big hits.
We were all happy... We could see our music slowly changing the world.
But, because of that, I realized that I couldn't follow my dream.
I was happy that the band made it big. I was happy we were all friends, and I was happy I could still play flute...
But I still cried, every night, because I wanted to be able to travel in an orchestra, playing music that had no words, but could bring tears to the eyes of millions...
I wanted to be able to play Clair de Lune on flute, and have people hear the grace and beauty.

I woke up crying to that.
I really want the band to make it big.
But, I also want to travel the world playing my flute...
I wonder if there's a way to do both...
=/

Anyway, my dreams really freaked me out.
I feel like they all have a hidden message behind them, but I'm honestly scared to look.
Hahahah.