Can you possibly realize just how releasing it is to hear the truth and know the why of a break up? I'm still upset, and I'm still hurting, but it really helps to know why she left and not just get all sorts of bullshit excuses about not wanting to be in a relationship.
In a way, it hurts a bit worse because of the reason, which I feel could have been fixed so easily. But at least I know. I can truly begin to heal now. I can learn from my mistakes.
One thing I must find is a girl who tell me things like that when they happen, not a year down the road when not knowing has wrecked me and my confidence. I really do hope in many ways, that the next girl is a lot like Madison. Beautiful and intelligent and quirky in all the right ways.
One thing though. If the new girl ever lies to me about coming to be with me, I will drop her before she can fully entangle me like I should have done with Madison when she first went to Val-tech after telling me she'd come to me on her 18th birthday. Really, was it any wonder that I got upset when she lied again!? She told me she just wanted to finish that one course and I believed her! Why shouldn't I have been upset!? I didn't want to control her, I wanted her to stop lying to me! If I'd known I could have taken that time and emotion and spent it on someone who wanted to be with me, not shot my heart out thinking that I didn't have to worry about her breaking my heart.
Closure helps, but it hurts to I see. I still feel bad... Please let the next girl be honest...
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