'No More..'
I'm officially done with love. Not because I'm depressed or anything. But, because I am over it all now. And, I don't want to feel the way I did.
I feel so much better now. Numb still, but better. I feel like, I now have complete control in my life. I have never felt that before. it has always been controlled by someone.
I feel nothing but happiness, for no specific reason. Just, that i feel so free.
No one's life is perfect, but I'm going to make mine as close to it as it can be.
And to think. two hours ago, I felt like dying. No reason to live. I think about that now, and realize that it may be true, but why waste the fun? I've always been held down by one person. He may know it, or not. But, not anymore. I feel so /alive/. I can feel my heart again. Someone must have placed it back in it's place for me. I appreciate it.
From now on, I promise myself I will not give my heart away. It feels amazing with it back, and I'm not losing it again. EVER. I'm trying to get everything else lined up in my life. Hopefully, it's not too hard. But, all I can do is hope and try.
Right now, I feel so damn amazing. No idea why. I can't think. /that's a good thing/
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